Quotes of a 2 year old

Wanting to change

2010-09-25T18:40:00.003-06:00

Well there are so many things that I want right now. A Job that has decent pay would be nice. The ability to take a vacation and not feel guilty about leaving work for a week or two. (of course that would come after I get the job) I would also love to lose a little more weight. I seem to have gained back some of the stuff I lost recently.

But Of all these things the thing that I want to change the most is my attitude about my life. I have been letting myself get a little down. As you can see by my last post, I have been feeling a little unwanted for any type of work. I have to personally realize that this is only temporary. I have some great friends and family looking out for me. The give me work to do, they take me out to eat and they send ideas for work my way.

I need to get the motivation to get up every morning and do something besides turn on the TV. I am not normally a couch potato. But I have really picked it up over the past few months. I feel like I have nothing to do. when really I have plenty that I could be doing that would benefit me more than sitting in front of the TV watching some dumb mid morning show. I could be working out or I could be doing school work or I could be working on a hobby. There are so many other things I could do with my current situation.

So starting now I am going to limit my time on the Internet. I am going to post something on my Blog once a week just to keep my mind running if nothing else. I am going to get up early every morning and go work out. I am going to spend time drawing for at least a half hour every day on anything that comes to mind. I am going to do my schoolwork for that day before I turn on the TV. I am going to take the dog on a walk after I work out every morning and then take him on a walk before bed every night. I am going to make sure the pets are groomed every week. And I am going to make sure my wife helps me on everything because I know I will eventually fail if I do not have someone to support me.

These are my gaols. These are my way of saying to life you have not defeated me. This will be my way to take back what I have lost and what was taken from me. This is how I will prove to myself and others that I am willing and ready to work hard and smart. That I am a good person to have around. That I am trustworthy to myself and others and that I am the best person for any job that comes my way.

Not wanted.

2010-09-15T11:07:00.003-06:00

So I keep learning the hard way that it is very difficult to get anywhere in this world. As of December of 2009 I have been out of work. I have applied for many jobs, but apparently I am not good enough for any of them.

The only full time job that I have gotten was one trying to sell credit card machines. Honestly I hated that job from day 2. I hated trying to sell a product that I didn't know anything about to someone that had possibly received a call 5 min earlier from someone trying to sell the same thing. I also noticed how dishonest you have to be. One of the salesman was constantly pushing that you should tell people that you are from somewhere else and not the company you say you are with. really. to make money I have to lie, even if it is a little white lie? I think I will stay unemployed thank you. I didn't earn one penny there. Just a headache and a lost ego.

So I have been job hunting since. No one is hiring or they have to many applicants in my chosen job field.

So a good friend of mine sent a job my way. He wanted me there and gave me a great reference and the man I would be working under said he really wanted me there. But the people that never met me said I was not good enough. Even though I am willing to work hard and learn as much as possible. Three things going for me and one thing against and I still lose.

Ugg! I am so tired of job hunting for jobs and getting nothing out of it. Sure they say there are jobs out there. But I can't pay my bills getting paid $8 or $10 an hour. So here I sit. Where a year ago I was making about $21 an hour, to now I am earning $12.5o an hour on unemployment.

Inspiration vs motivation

2010-06-26T18:11:00.004-06:00

I have been thinking recently. You can be inspired by many people but they cannot make you a leader that can't make you do anything. They can try to drag you along but it means nothing. So what are our options.

Well if you want to go to the gym every day and get in great shape. You have to do it you have to take the time you are the one that has to get in the car and drive to the gym, or put in the workout video, or just get yourself outside. You can be inspired by your friends going to the gym but that will never make you keep going that will never get you active.

Do not depend on others for your motivation. How many times to we say to ourselves that we will go if "So and so" goes. Or how often do we wait for that phone call by one of our friends to ask us to go do something with them. We are Dependant on them. If you are dependent on someone. Let it go. They will eventually fail you no matter what their good intentions are. But if you take the role as leader you will be the one getting the benefit.

So who is a leader. A leader is one that is inspired by others and then in turn inspires others. They create their own motivation. They are the ones that get up in the morning because it's time to get up. not because they are running late not because someone else forced them out of bed. They got up because they have things they want to do and they have found the motivation they need to keep going.

Things can be rough at times. I have had many times in my life where I have thought of just giving up and not doing anything. But I am willing to get up and continue going. I do not let myself cry over how tired I am. I know that if I go until I am just to tired to go anymore I will feel better the next day. That does not mean that you work work work all the time though. It means that when it is time to get down to business you take care of business before you relax. We are not always perfect in this, but if you keep this frame of mind you will rarely find yourself rushing to meet an imposable deadline.

So let others motivate you and give you good advice. Let others encourage you into doing great things. But find your own motivation. Find your own quest and reason for living. Laying in bed all day or sitting on the couch all day will do nothing for you.

Oh this is such a guilty pleasure for me.

2010-05-29T12:17:00.003-06:00

So for a few years now I have watched the channel G4. If I have any show in this station that I just love to watch. It does not matter if it is a re-run or not it is the show. Ninja Warrior.
This show is a Japanese show that is really big here in the states. G4 has done a couple of competition shows here to send one or 2 people over to Japan to compete. This is a show that many stations have tried to mimic here with varied results. The show Wipeout on NBC is one of them. It is fun but not the same.

You get all sorts of competitors in Ninja warrior. You have the silly people that have no chance at getting even past the first stage and then you have the ones that are in such great condition that you are surprised if they don't win the whole thing. Olympic Athletes have competed in this along with many others. Some of the most popular competitors are called the all-stars. They have been competing in this for a long time. One is still competing from the very first episode.

Although the show is not that old it is still a very popular in this country and also so popular in Japan they have a amusement park with a smaller replica that people can try. Some people will train there. Others have build their own personal replicas of some of the obstacles in their backyards.

If you ever find this show on T.V., Give it a try. I am sure you will get a kick out of it like I do.

Mosk in New York?

2010-05-26T12:19:00.003-06:00

So the big news on this week. besides immigration and the big oil spill is the Muslim Mosk that is being proposed at or around ground zero. Now I do not have an issue with the Muslim people. I think in general the religion is peaceful. It is the extremists that have caused this country allot of pain. But I do think it is ill advised to even ask to build anything that has to do with the Muslim religion in that area of the city.

Why? If you had someone come into your house and kill your family then themselves would you want their family to move next door? Now you might not have a issue with the family. You might completely trust them. But would it not be a constant reminder to you of what happened? Would you think it in bad taste for them to move into a neighborhood where one of their own did something so bad? I would.

During the Crusades which were a very dark time for the Christen religion. When a building was built on them Muslim land. Especially a Chapel or something to represent the catholic faith. What did the Muslims think about that. What if Americans wanted to build a Catholic chapel right by one of their holy places. What would they say?

So why argue that this is the right thing to do? Why do we have to accept them? Why do we have to prove to them that we are willing to gain their trust. Why do they want to put a building there? Doing this will only garner more distrust of the Muslim religion.

People might say that the Muslim community does not have anything against Americans. But what I saw in every Muslim country after 9-11 says contrary. People were cheering in the streets. I would not doubt that if something of that magnitude happened again you would see more cheering in the streets. Muslims and Muslim Americans are two very different people.

So no I do not support them building anything near that area.

Go Arizona Go!

2010-05-25T16:35:00.002-06:00

Now I am not saying that every state should follow the lead of Arizona, But those that are critical of the immigration law of Arizona should read it before they attack it.

First of all I just finished reading it and it clearly states right at the first that this law is to enable the state to more lawfully help the federal government in their job. The law does not add anything new to current federal laws. This law only enables the police in Arizona to more fully support the federal government in their job. In no case are they saying they can randomly pick someone out of a crowd and ask them for proof that they have the right to be here. The Argument that this law will allow for racial profiling are made by people that are crying wolf when none is there.

This law encourages the Arizona law enforcement once they have arrested someone or detained someone for breaking another law, they should ask for proof of the persons resident status. This law goes on to say that it is illegal for a person or company to hire a illegal immigrant. Many paragraphs go on to say what the company is suppose to do and what the court system is suppose to do, from warnings and fines to arrests.

If you want to argue on this you should read the entire bill first. Do not read bits and pieces. If I read bits and pieces of everything I should, I would have killed my friends and family because the Bible told me to. I would get every math problem wrong because I would be skipping a step every time. Do not read this law to prove it wrong. Read it to find it's true intent. Do not listen to the liberals fighting against it or the conservatives fighting for it. Read it and find out for yourself what it is saying.

Day 5 P90X

2010-03-05T18:04:00.007-07:00

So I started P90X on Monday this week. I took some pitures and felt like I was going to die on a couple of the days. These days would be when I did Plyometrics and Yoga. If you ever want to feel like your going to die after doing a workout try the Plyometrics and go all out. Yoga on the other hand will make you feel so weak. After 45 min of the standing postures you might as well feel like you could roll over and die. But the benefit of yoga is that it teaches you to relax.

All the other days have been good. I have worked out hard but sometimes just wishing that I could afford a set of free weights instead of having the bands. But I guess that is why I have had a gym membership in the past.

So now this week I have not lost much weight if any. I have weighed myself and have only seen about 1-1/2 pound difference. that could easily be just that I did not eat as much the day before or just that my body is in flux.

Today being Friday was my leg & back day. I have to be a little careful as I have two bad knees and so I have to tone down the moves at first so that I don't cause any damage. Wall Squats I would say are the most difficult, especially the single leg squats. I cant say much about the pull ups as I have always had a difficult time with them. When I did this last year I got up to being able to do 5. That is really good for me. This time around I started off a little better. So I am hoping and have a goal to be able to do 10 by the time I am done with this whole process.

So now for the Bad news. Here are my pictures. You should be ok since this is only a few pictures of me so you won't have to wear protective eye wear.

P90X once again.

2010-02-26T14:26:00.003-07:00

So once again I am going to go after my body and beat it up doing P90X. I am going to take all the things I learned from last time and I hope this time around that the benefits will be even greater. The things that hindered me last time were

Wedding- I was so busy trying to help with the wedding and then all the family parties and holidays along with that I did not eat as well as I could have
Lack or equipment- Last time I did not have Yoga mats, or a heart rate monitor or even a scale. I would have to use someone else's. This time around I have all the equipment that I need.
Time- Last time I was doing P90x I was starting work every morning at 7 am so I would get up at 5am every morning. That would not have been so difficult except for the fact that I would have to take my now wife home every night and we would usually stay up pretty late wanting to spend as much time with each other before I had to take her home. Now we can see each other any time we want(which is great) and she is already home. Also now I am currently only employed part time so I can sleep a little bit longer although I do not plan to sleep in too late.
Protein drink- Last time I did't get a proper protein drink. and the one I got tasted horrible so I would not always drink it. Now I have a better tasting one that will help me to improve everything much faster.

So I will be taking some pictures soon so that I can compare everything. I will try to post many of my current stats on here to keep anyone out there informed that is interested. I will be starting this upcoming Monday.

Lose one job quit another.

2010-02-26T14:03:00.003-07:00

Well I have not posted in a while So I will try to give a quick rundown of the past 2 or 3 months. December was a difficult month. With Christmas keeping everyone busy along with everything else we do it was hard to keep up. But about4 days before Christmas day I got notice that I was being let go and to be out by noon. They had no more work for me. My supervisor and other boss called me in after I got the news and apologized for everything. Letting me know he had fought to keep me. I do not blame him for anything. But that took all the wind out of my sales just before Christmas. I was expecting if nothing else maybe a bonus check for all the hard work I had done from September to December. But instead I got a severance check.

So now it has been a little over 2 months since I was laid off. I have found that getting an unemployment check is very difficult to get from the state. First off they don't take into account what I was really earning. So I have took about a $1000 per month pay cut. Then I took a part time job and so they stopped payment on my unemployment right away. That job I was not earning anything and not enjoying it at all. I could not even justify the gas I was spending to get to work. So I quit that job so that I could look for something better. Of course if you quit a job they will put your unemployment back on hold until they decide if they are still going to pay you or not. Paperwork paperwork paperwork. Make our government run slow and yet they still make mistakes. So now I am working part time for my wifes parents helping will collections and some billing. Mostly the folding of paperwork on the billing. But I will say a much more satisfying job compared to the other one.

Now I am still looking for full time work. I am taking online courses to try and get a bachelors degree in art, something I have been thinking of doing for a long time. Sad that it took me loosing my job before I fully took advantage of it. Then I sit at home most of the day trying to save money and take advantage of everything I can. Hopefully sometime soon I will be doing allot of doggy sitting so that I can help pay the bills. I figure if I take a few part time jobs along with the doggy sitting I might be able to bring in a pretty decent salary.

So I guess that would be the basics for everything. I am sure not many people read this so any secrets that I may have divulged should be safe.

Double Thanksgiving.

2009-11-23T11:06:00.003-07:00

So this is my first year Married, and this is my first holiday season not being a bachelor. Not that I have been single for the past 2 years. Just not everything is official and recognized by the state. So some of the hiccups of all of this is the fact that I have two sides to my family. My side and the wifes side. I got it off easy for thanksgiving this year since some of my family is not going to be in town this year. So we got to have a big thanksgiving meal over at my brothers house with his family and my parents. We ate allot and are heavier for it. Then thanksgiving day we will be with Cassie's family.

This will be a good year for us. Next year we will have a whole new mess since both family's are so close and and of course both of us get along with our families we will be all over. So hopefully next year our financial status will be better than it is this year so that we can afford the gas from driving all over town.

But it feels good to have started into this holiday season. I have found that I am enjoying the thought of having 2 thanksgiving meals on two separate days. That way I get to enjoy both families cooking and I don't have to conserve my stomach for another big meal later that day.

Happy holidays to everyone.

Family Fun.

2009-11-09T15:10:00.002-07:00

Well I was just thinking. I love spending time with family. It's fun to kid around with them. Laugh with them and like all your other friends, it's fun to just be around them. Even if it's the most boring movie in the world you will get something out of it. Even if it is an inside joke that no one else will ever understand. I have always had that with my family. I love all my siblings. My brother Josh has always been my caretaker. My sister Genny has always been my workout partner even if it's 300 miles away, and my sister Jaime has always been my voice of reason.

Well now I have more family. Over the past Few weeks I have been able to hang out with my two new sisters, or more to the fact Sister-in-laws. We have painted pumpkins and watched movies and done all sorts of fun things. Although I do not yet fully know what roles they will play in my life I know that they will.

Ha! Now if only I can get them to play more video games with me. Love you all.

Cycle of life.

2009-10-26T08:44:00.004-06:00

I was talking to my wonderful wife yesterday about one of my thoughts on life. I believe everything runs in cycles. in general you will see the full outcome of something not right after you are done but after a period of time. I consider this period of time to be generally in 7's. I do not think you will see what a president has done until 7 years after. Most recent is the Republican supported but Democrat endorsed and President Clinton signed housing bill that is one of many reasons for the current economic struggles. But also on that is it has been 7 years since 9/11. We lost many brilliant minds that day and I believe we are paying for it now.

So why do I think this happens? I don't think it is an act of God in general. Maybe in some way it is. But this would be more like god works in mysterious ways then. But I think the people of the world in general have a short attention span. This generally sets things in a cycle. This is why in America you see a switch of Political parties in general every 7 years. This is why you see falls in the market every few years. After 9/11 people were all pumped up about America being strong and powerful. But the population as a whole became disinterested after a few years. Bad decisions were made and people became more interested in other things rather than keeping the market strong.

It was around 3 to 5 months into President Obamas 4 year term that people have started to lose faith in him. 7 months into his Presidency his approval ratings dropped drastically. This shows to me that you only get a short period of time in the public eye to make something work. The issue is that it takes longer than that. President Bush warned that the wars in Afghanistan and Iraq would take a long time. The American public was all for that. But, Once the public lost interest in the wars "in general that was after the first few months" you started to see backlash. Honestly this is what Osama was betting on. Vietnam was the same way. Their leaders knew of the worlds attention span, In specific Americas lack of an attention span. They knew they just had to keep picking away. Once that started to happen then the politicians got involved. There were rallies and other things. American soldiers were degraded in their own country. Support in the war was lost. Not that I am saying if it was right to be there or not. But American support fell. Because of that, troops had to pull back, getting many of them killed in the process or throwing away the victories of those that had given their lives to push things forward.

Those are just big examples that have effected our lives now and some of the affects we are only seeing now or have not seen them yet. I think we can all live our lives by a factor of 7. Not that that is a hard number. You can go more or less by a year or two before you notice the difference. It is like a wave of peaks and valleys threw time. I think we are in that right now with this economic down turn. We have hit the low, and it will take us time to get out of it. But we are out. In the next few years we will see growth again. over the next 7 years we will see growth in America and the world. This is the time we prepare ourselves. This is the time we make the good choices in our lives to prepare for the next downturn. Expect to see struggles in the market again in 8 to 9 years. Your life does not have to be in the same cycle as the stock market. You could be having the best times right now, or you could still be on your way up or way down. These are the times that we grow in our lives. It is not a straight track and we will be taken all over. This is how we learn the lessons in our lives is we learn from the bad times and put those into the good time so that when the bad times come around again we can better handle the storm.

World is going down hill fast

2009-10-12T11:55:00.001-06:00

Over the past few weeks I have thought about this. It has bugged me forever but the other night it came to a point where I just had to let it burst out. "This world is going to hell and I know how and why!"

First off the reason I got upset. I have posted on forums and blogs many time. I usually try to be more of a middle man and I try not to start a fight. But I do say it as I see it and I give reasons why. Well when one of those posts get's deleted or reported because someone got insulted by one thing I said I have every right to get upset. I will do my best from now on not to support these sites.

Now the reason for the issue. Everyone now feels that they have the right to cry about everything. They whimper about how you say something. Not what you mean by it. They take offense to everything. A black person, if they so desire will or are looking for it can make anything look racially motivated. A Hispanic man will say it's you fault he is poor and uninsured even though he is not the one looking for a good job or finishing his education. A feminist will say she was not given a job because she was a woman. Not because she was not as qualified as the person that actually got the job. I am sure there will be someone out there that will be insulted that I used hell in this blog, and to that I say. Dammit I can say what ever the hell I want!

This happens all over the world. You cannot say your thoughts anymore. You cannot give an educated answer unless you have 5 Ph D's on that subject. Otherwise people will take offense to it. They will say your a nut and a crazy angry man. Democrats are getting upset because republicans are demonizing the president. Well I just say it's all fair. The democrats have been doing that for years against Bush. All is fair in love and war as they say. if you give it you better be able to take it.

As for the current American arguments. Healthcare is not a human right, it is a privilege. A right is th freedom to live and breath. If you do not take care of yourself now. we should not be expected to take care of you later when it is already to late. America gives opportunities. They give you the opportunity to have better healthcare. they give you opportunity to have a better job, bigger house, more money. These are not rights. These are not things that should be given to you. You can cry all you want about it. If we want to pour our money to the needy. Give them more opportunities for education. more opportunities to get a good job. Those will give them opportunities to get better healthcare.

Human kind does not need to be pampered and taken care of. We learn by trials. We learn by the hard times that we have to go threw. We learn to take better care of ourselves. If you are not worried about what everyone else is saying you will stop taking everything said as a potential insult.

I cannot say that I have not been part of this and I cannot say that I will never be again. But from now on I am going to do everything I can to not be a part of this system anymore.

Do we Really need a Public Option? Really?

2009-09-16T10:19:00.002-06:00

Ok so this might be late. because it has so far been pushed out or tones down on the current health bill. But Do we really need a public option? I do not see why we do.

Liberals like obama will tell you that we do because there are 50 million people that are not insured in this country. To which I say. How many of those 50 million chose not to be insured because the feel invincible.

Now they will also tell you that this will just be another option in our current healthcare system? Really so we need another option. Do not the plethora of health insurance companies out there consitute plenty of options? do we need one more that just happens to be goverment run?

They will tell us that healthcare costs are way to high. To that I answer. Yes it can be extremly high. But also if you are in general good health you can get a insurace program that is relitivly cheap. More of an emergincy insurance. Fix the little bumps and dings that you will get along the way. The current insurance that I have I am not even sure if I need that much coverage. I am a lucky one though. Because my company still pays for me to be covered. But If I had to. I would be able to get health insurance for half the cost somewhere else.

They will tell you 30+ other countries are doing it and are happy. To which I answer. "Yes and the people in that country will get the extra health insurance provided by companies just so they can get better care that the national one just cannot provide."

So why would we need a public option? I do not see any reason other than the current Goverment wants to be a do all Goverment. We would not get a health benefit. We would not truly get a cost benefit. All we would get is another possible provider or in some cases a second provider.

So many things to do.

2009-09-15T14:55:00.002-06:00

Well It has been just over 3 months Since Cassandra and I got married. I don't think we have had much rest time either. Family Gatherings, Baby blessings, Double dates with friends (so we don't alienate everyone.) All this has kept us so busy that we have not been to our ward very often. We have not been home on sundays. We are generally out of town or somewhere else. Its a crazy life. But I am glad I have it. Otherwise we would be bored.

Cassie and I finally got some of our pictures hung up in out place. That took way longer than I hoped. We have a new DVD case so that we can fir all of our movies(mostly from cassies side) into something more orderly than what we had before.

Cassie is starting her cousins Biggest looser 2 competition this week. We are hopeing we will win and so although I am not entering it with her. I will be going on the same diet myself. Too loose some much not needed weight and also to not be a distraction to cassie during this competition. I think we have decided that she will be in charge of the food that we eat and I will be in charge of our workouts. Hopefully this works out the best for both of us.

Well I think that is our latest update. Hopefully soon I will get some time to transfer over my computer to our place so that cassie can update her blog also.

2009-08-27T14:15:00.002-06:00

Yup! In a week I will be tunring 31. The age that when I was 13 and didn't know any better thought was the age people became old farts. The age of only a year ago that I became an outcast to the Single life Society. Lucky I got out of that when I did. But in a week I will not be able to say I am just out of my 20's. I will be into my 30's. Of course they do say that 30 is the new 20 somewhere right? I don't figure I am that old except for my lack of energy, My desire to go to bed at 9:00 pm every night. My two bad kneese that flare up when the temprature changes. The fact that I really do like my vegetables except for a few inparticular ones, the fact that I cannot eat tons of junk food and not even gain a pound, and last but not least the fact that I get up early in the morning to(close your eyes and plug your ears or just skip this part all togeather if you can't handle it.) Pee. Yes I not only get up at 5:30 every mornig to run. But also if I even wanted to stay in bed and sleep I would have no choice but to go to the bathroom or wet the bed. The latter my wife might get upset with.

All of these I have a reason for. Making me feel all the older. I want to go to bed early because I wake up early. I have bad kneese because of bad genetics and too much football. I gain weight eating alot of junk food because I have not stayed in as good of shape my whole life like I should have. I have just got myself into a rythem. Not a Rut. A Rut would be something that I hate doing every day but do it because I don't know what else to do.

But here is to becoming 31. The age where you see most people on TV in the best shape of their lives. The age where Hollywood stars join crazy religious cults, The age where you make it or break it in life. In the 21st Century 30 has taken over where 20 was in the 20th Century. Or so I am told, and dang it I am going to believe it.

Go Vick, Go Eagles!

2009-08-18T15:33:00.003-06:00

OK. This is a hot Topic. Michael Vick. The former all-star NFL Quarterback that was arrested over 2 years ago for running and funding a dog fighting ring.

Now I am not a Eagles fan and I saw some of Vick's games back in his hay day. But personally never got into watching him but knew the name. I do not agree with what he has done. and I agree with the Prison time and home areas that he has been put threw. I do not have issue with him going bankrupt for paying back the community for the crimes that he committed and funded. But there are some things I do have issues with and they are not with Vick or the Eagles.

I have Issues with all those that do not want him back into the NFL. I have issues with those that will not forgive a man or at least give a man a chance to get back into his life after our system has said he has done his time. I have Issues with those that see themselves better than someone because they have not committed a crime or at least have not been caught yet.

Michael Vick has been deemed worthy by all those that he has personally met with. Public opinion does not see his heart or his intentions. Public opinion only counts after the fact. Why? Because public opinion is uninformed, uneducated and cruel. Public opinion is filled with hatred.

Public opinion says that Michael Vick should never play in the NFL again. Public opinion says to boycott the Eagles because they are the team giving him a chance.

I say Give Vick a chance. The eagles have done just that. They did exactly what I thought they should do. They gave him a smaller contract for one year. They gave him the contract stating they can let him go next year if he does not perform. That is not only on the field but also off the field. He has to prove that he is more than willing to be a proper role model to those that will look up to him. He has to prove that he is more than willing to help the National Human Society in all that they do. He has a year to prove this. The Eagles are giving this man a shot that no one else would. They are giving him a chance to prove to public opinion that he has grown up and become a better person.

So I say this. Go Eagles for showing that your still a team with Humane Ideals. and I say GO Vick! Prove all your nay Sayers wrong. Prove that you have rethought your life and become a better man. I look forward to seeing the eagles have a good season.

Married life

2009-08-13T08:48:00.003-06:00

So Tuesday was the 11th. meaning that Cassie and I have been married for two months. Also Monday was the 10th meaning Cassie and I had our first date 2 years ago. The week started off busy. Things to do not much rest to be had. But Monday night Cassie and I recreated our first date. We went miniture golfing at Mulligans and had dinner at Gekko's just across the street. Tuesday we enjoyed eachothers company because as a married couple we are poor and one big date wipes out our party cash for the week or possibly the month.

But It has been great. There are many things I would like to improve on, but Married life is great.

Buisness Ethics

2009-08-12T08:45:00.002-06:00

Ok my last post was ranting about Democrat Propoganda. But I do agree with one or two things that the guy said. Although not how he said it. I wish I had saved the link for everyone to read. I will see about looking it up.

One of the points he did sight was these Big CEO's of companies that sign contracts with a garanteed bonus. What I was complaining about was that he was blaming Ronald Regan and his push for small goverment. But goverment involvement is not the issue. It is greed and stupidity. It is the feeling of entitlement that these people have.

A Bonus is not something that should be garenteed. A Bonus is something you get for doing well. Something you get for improving buisness. But most of these companies that are giving these Bogus bonuses are in the Red as they would say. They are in debt. They live paycheck to paycheck. They not only live beyond thier means the splurge way beyond it. If I lived my life that way. I would have 6 car. 4 of them exotic sports cars and the other two of them would be $100,000 plus. I would have a 10,000 sq ft. house and eat like a king every night haveing my servants feed me. Basically I would be in debt not only up to my ears but I would be burried feet underneath it.

So what does this come down to? I am sure most of these buisnessmen are good at what they do. But do the decisions that they make warrent them a $10 mil. bonus? Can they make that same promise to the other people that they are making contracts with? Does the rest of the company see profits that are that much higher? Should not the normal Salary of these CEO's be suffecient? All these are Ethical questions. Are they getting paid what they are worth? Some I would say yes. Other, Especially the high profile ones, No!!! Why do I say "No". Because the companies that fired them did not make a profit. The CEO just found a loop hole. Some people might use the argument that it was in his contract and so he gets it no matter what. Well a bonus is by definitian "something in addition to what is expected or strictly due" So technically you cant sign for a bonus. You can only recieve a bonus for doing something well or right. On that same note. You cannot recieve a bonus for getting fired.

Buisness Ethics is what is missing not only in this country. But in this world. We need to hold back on this scence of entitlement. But not only in buisness, but also goverment. These higher ups not matter where they are, consider themselves better that you or me. I challenge them to do anything without the workers of this country. Bill Gates and Microsoft would be nothing without all the quality programmers that work for them on a much lower payscale. Car manufactures would not be able to proceed without the help of thier factory workers. Insurance companies would fail without thier secretaries and others that would be considered lowly in the mind of a arrogant richman.

We need to get rid of the idea of upping our station or earning more money. We should not feel entitled for a well paying job just because we finished college. You have to prove that you can be a productive member of society. You have to prove that you can better the position you are in. An education does not matter where you got it from if you cannot use it properly. You get paid for the work you do well, not for the schooling or history that you have.

Age Of reason

2009-08-10T16:43:00.003-06:00

I was just reading a article on AOL talking about how because of Ronald Regan and his small government idea. That is what has caused all the issues in this country.

My comment to that is that no liberal seems to know what he is talking about anymore. They are so far left that they will not allow themselves to think in any other direction. They attacked Bush 7 of the 8 years he was in office. They did suck a good job at it that they made the war in Iraq even harder. They were the ones that killed soldiers. They are the ones that killed our friends and children. Why because they showed the world what we have become. WEAK!!! We bicker and fight over every little thing. We debate over everything. Every ones feelings have to be taken into account. Even if they would rather kill you than look at you.

So now that they have Made both Bush Sr. and Jr. look like devils. They are now attacking Regan. One of the most popular and well loved presidents of all time. Why are they going after him? Because they are trying and very successfully tearing down the system. They want all the power to be put in the hands of the few to control the many. They want us to be slaves to ourselves. They want the rich to pay the poor to not do anything. They tout themselves as a modern day Robbin hood and the poor and troubled cheer them on, but yet they do not know why. The poor only hear that they either don't have to work or they have to work less. they hear things like free health care and cheaper fuel costs. They do not know what these are or what they mean.

As a country we are slowly falling into the propaganda that the far left wing liberals are pushing. They have taken over the media and they come into our homes. they are filling our minds with crap and evil. We need to fight it. We need to work to better form our own opinions and throw half of what the media says to the side.

We need to become the Land of the Free and home of the brave once more. This is not a one person fight. We all need to look at what is happening and see if we truly agree with it or not. This is not a popularity contest. This is life. We need to leave the Jr high and high school mentalities behind us. We need to hear what people are pushing for and not just cheer them for speaking well. We need to not attack ourselves to just one persons ideals. But hear everyone and become our own person. We all do these things and this country will have a chance. If not we will become the next Rome.

Age of Fear

2009-08-04T07:47:00.003-06:00

I was a little heated up last night over an incident that happened Sunday night. We have some neighbor kids that like to doorbell ditch us frequently. Normally it is just a little game and I pay little to no attention to it. But Sunday night after a long drive. It was pretty late. Between 10 and 10:30pm.

I had gone to bed since I wake up every morning at 6am or earlier. Cassie was staying up a little longer than me. But was about to go to bed herself. When the doorbell starts ringing like crazy. When Cassie opened the door she had rocks thrown at her. Not pebbles. But rocks. So not only are we rudely awakened at a late hour. Cassie was attacked by a little girl. Somewhere between the age of 4 to 8.

So last night I was still upset about the incident. Why is this child up and out side causing trouble 10 at night? I was not allowed outside after 10. Heck at that age I was in bed. Maybe parents don't believe in bedtimes anymore? Its not the hip thing to tech your child good bed habits anymore?

So in my rage I said to Cassie. If that child rang our doorbell like crazy again in the middle of the night and then threw rocks at either of us again. I was going to go out there and spank her. Cassies prompt response was. "I would not do that, They could sue us."

Now Cassies response although right made me think. This is the age of fear. We are all afraid that someone would sue us. You have to keep your house clean and in good condition because if someone comes into your house to rob you and happens to trip and fall, hurting them self. They can sue you for the injury. Not only that. They have won cases in the past! So it does not matter that they were in the wrong. That they were committing a crime. It only matters that they got hurt on your property.

So now back to my situation. The mom of the child was outside. She did apologize to Cassie for the child ringing the doorbell. It was a case of "Was that my child?!?!? Oh I am sorry" so part denial and a simple possibly PC apology. Did she mean it? I don't know. But did she promptly take that child into her room and at least ground her for the night? Did the child even know what she did was wrong?

So where does the fear stop? Should I be afraid every day of protecting myself, my wife, or any one in my family? If you go by the news or public opinion. Yes. Don't do anything of the sort. Do not stand up for human rights unless your part of the human right organization. Even then they will step on your toes and hold you back from doing the right thing, just so that they can keep their funding.

So what can we do. We protect ourselves, we get sued. We do nothing, We get taken advantage of. This is an age of fear. An age of rewarding those that do wrong. I am sick of it. You can't go to a politician because they Will give you the politically correct answer. You can't go to a lawyer because of previous cases they will just tell you that you will lose. We are stuck in the mud. We have to let people take advantage of us because it is the only way to keep yourself from going into horrible debt.

Loss of our magical youth

2009-06-25T16:43:00.004-06:00

Well it is Official. Michael Jackson has passed on.

He has not been a big influence in my life for the past 15 or 20 years. But growing up how could I forget Thriller! I watched the Video I don't know how many times and I watched the the making of Video just as much. And who could forget his moon walk or Billy jean, I think we started to see him go down hill after "Bad" came out. But We all have been influenced by this man.

I can only wish his family my best at this time. They have my prayers with them at this time. Him only being 50 right now. That is such a young age to die.

We Wish you the Best Michael where ever you may be at this time. We will miss you.

Never thought I would hate being called a name

2009-06-25T08:14:00.003-06:00

Usually when people first meet me they ask if they should call me Jake or Jacob. My reply to them is, "I don't care. You can call me "hey you!" if you want."

Then people Find out that my middle name is Jacob and that my first name is William. So they just ask me why I do not go by William or Will. To which I reply. I just have never answered to William or Will and if you try to talk to me and call me William the chances of me realizing your talking to me is slim.

So as the wedding approached Cassie said that her family might get confused by the William Jacob Shelley on the invitations. Worried that people might call me William or Will. I said I did not mind. But I never realized that people might call me Bill. But not only call me Bill they would but it on cards, Gifts and other things. So when I started to see this. I was disturbed. Allot more than I ever thought I would be. Bill?? My granfather on my mothers side is a Bill. My uncle is a Bill. Cassies Grandfather on her mothers side is a Bill. I am not a Bill. I did not put Bill on the invitations or on the registrys or anywhere at all. I did not even hint at ever wanting to be called Bill.

I laugh at it now. But when I first saw it, it sent shivers down my spine, and not the good shivers either. Both Cassie and I both got this name change thing in our gifts she got Cassy. Both of us were a little annoyed. But we laugh at it now. What can you do really. But for everyone out there. I am a Jake or Jacob and it's Cassandra or Cassie.

Internet. Schmiternet!

2009-06-23T16:33:00.002-06:00

I am Really getting tired of all there networking sites. I mean really how many do I need to join? How many times do I need to know that some person I knew at one point in time is brushing thier teeth or trying to decide if they should go shopping or not.

Then you get into the news. Not only is the news becomming more and more usless. Giving opinions and not facts. Why do the Newspapers have to work so hard to get money. Why do things have to get some damn expensive. The digital age has done so many great things for us. But also the Digital age has torn us and more specifically the youth so far away from reality that I am suprised that we even take time to cook ourselves a meal anymore.

These are things I have seen that the internet has done for us the past decade or so.

1. Helps the American or just in general the world population gain fat.

2. Lets all of us think we are know it alls because we know how to look something up on Wikipedia.

3. Made us all even more of a critique. because everyone has an opinion on everything. The internet just lets us type it for everyone to see and know what type of moron we are.

4. It has took away our work ethic as a nation. It does not matter if it is at home or on the job. We do less work and more web surfing.

5. Internet rip off sites and scams. enough said.

6. Scocial networking sites that make us Less Scocial!

7. Twitter? Really??? Do we really need it!

8. Really sick and twisted sites. Not porn! But sites that show people getting maimed, killed, severly beaten up and all other horrible things. does not matter if it is fake or real. Why do we need it.

9. Child porn. You hear it more and more often of some teacher or goverment official gets caught.

10. Porn in general. I mean really it has gone from your standard typical stuff. To things that would just make you vomit. Sad thing is someone gets off from it. It encourages filth.

The internet Has many great things to offer. But all the filth and other crap you have to wade threw makes it so annoying. I admit that I have gotten caught up in some of these things. But Really I am wanting to be done with it. The Crap that I see going threw the world wide web has started to discust me. I know maybe 3 people will read this. But that is ok. I am sure someone would leave a dumb comment because they never learned to read anything more than a scentence in thier lifetime. We are in the age of the internet. Or the age or the know it all can't do anything with it.

MaRrIeD LiFe iS sTrAngE!

2009-06-23T11:59:00.002-06:00

It is so odd to think that I have been married now for a week and a half. Coming up on 2 weeks. No more late night Drives to and from home to drop cassie off. No more holding back on the makeouts.(No more details here) andMore time with my sweety. More sleep for sure. Just the quality time that I always wanted.

But Still everyonce in a while I just think. How in the world did I get this beautiful Woman to marry me. We are both crazy I guess.

P90X 2 months over one to go

2009-05-21T09:07:00.008-06:00

Well I have been on P90X for 2 months now. Well as of today just under 2 months. I have noticed I have alot more energy and I am able to tighten up my belt alot more. Both big pluses. So this is my before and after pictures as of about a week ago.

Before

after

Religious VS Non-religious.

2009-05-20T15:46:00.002-06:00

The fight has gone on for centuries. The atheists claiming the religious people are nuts for believing in a god or higher being. The religious people saying it's crazy not to believe.

I think the tides have turned against religion. Not in the fact that they are wrong. But that the ones that try and claim they are wrong have found a way to get louder and make people think there are more of them than there really are. Where is this voice? The liberal media, Internet Forums and other Internet posts. We see it all the time. We are bombarded with it.

It has only come to show me that most of the vocal atheists out there are mere children when it comes to anything. Why do I say this. Well they call anyone that tries to contradict them morons, idiots, or just plain stupid, along with a myriad of many different names that I can't think of or would prefer not to say or in this case type. But the basic thing is that they are not teachable. They have been trained by the world to hate. They have been trained by the world to be stubborn. The religious world is not fighting against a competent foe. They are fighting anger and malice. They are fighting people that do not understand because they are not willing to understand much less even give a thought to trying.

For these people it is a loosing battle. They do not want you accept them for who they are, they want you to accept them for what they do. Can a Mass murderer tell all of us that he was just born to kill, he cannot help it. NO! He would still be punished and banned from society. He knows better he just decides not to follow it. Can a wall street banker steal millions of dollars and tell us he could not help it, he was born to take money from others. NO! He would be forced to pay the money back and what he could not repay in cash would be repaid in prison.

So why in the world do we accept all this anti-religious semitism. Why are we forced to accept some people for what they do and not who they are? Why are religious people call bigots and morons for stating what they believe to be true. Because the Media is now open to everyone. The educated are not the ones giving us all our news. Half the time the news we get is just bias as it is. Religion is under attack by the uneducated of the world. The ones that would not believe that you have two hands if you told them. They would have to see it, touch it, taste it. to believe in it and even then they would be in doubt.

Religion is in an intense fight. If you look at it in a religious sense you would see that it is the devil and the fence sitters that are making this fight possible. That is why it is a fight of nonsense. Because it is only a fight of hatred. Hate does not allow thoughts of understanding to enter. It blocks all that is good. You cannot see good if your looking for the bad. This is Satins fault, and he easily passes it on to us when we are in a weak state of mind.

Our we DeValuing our money?

2009-05-18T08:33:00.003-06:00

I hear every day every one wanting to become the next Millionaire. and you hear about it all the time. But what has happened seems to be hurting us rather than helping us. Now the rich people instead of being millionaires have to be billionaires.

Of course I have heard also that the typical CEO of a company use to make lets say 90 times the average employee and now they make nearly 250 times the average employee. Is not the 90 times enough? Can you not buy plenty of your toys getting 90X my yearly or monthly salary? Have we become a country of so much greed that we are willing to throw any morals aside in the quest for a bigger Humvee before turning it in for a massive loss because we hated it.

We encourage Crap products to be built. And someones makes it for $0.05 and sells it for $10 and we get this idea that its great. He or She makes millions of dollars because we have to buy it over and over again.

These Big companies outsource American designed products to some third world country that replace the metal with plastic. The CEO of the company gets a Big raise and a bonus on top of that. Then 6 months later he leaves the company with a big lawsuit on it because the product is faulty. Does he care? No because he has made his millions.

I realize there is very little or nothing I can personally do about this. I just have a gripe that everyone thinks that they are entitled to be a millionaire. Now it seems Millionaires are a dime a dozen. I wish we could fix this. But the mentality of this country and its people would not allow this. Everyone wants money. We all want that bigger house. I admit I am sometimes one of those people. But I still don't think it is right that the average CEO salary has grown 4x faster than the average employee.

This is Horrible News

2009-05-12T14:32:00.002-06:00

Oh No I am getting married I hope this is not true.

Study: Children Exposed To Pornography May Expect Sex To Be Enjoyable

Great Week, Somber Weekend

2009-05-04T10:08:00.004-06:00

Well this past week Started off Pretty Well. Cassie and I were getting ready for out Engagement photos and video. So it was allot of waxing,plucking,whitening and cleaning. Basically I was looking clean cut and younger for my pictures. Hopefully anyway.

Then Thursday we had the photo's It was quite fun. It was up at president circle at the U of U. We had allot of fun and I hope to have stuff up on our wedding site before next week.

Friday was just a catch up day. Cleaning, Washing, Doing the things that I don't get to during the week. Getting a nice Dinner With my Cassie Belle, and having a relaxing night.

Saturday was a mix of allot of different things. I did my normal morning workout and then printed a sticker for a sign around noon. Then I had a small lunch at home and then headed over to Cassie's because we were going to dinner with both my parents and her parents for the first time. I should say were because about 5 min out from the restaurant I got a phone call from my Dad. I was at first thinking he was just wondering if we were there yet or not. Now wish that had only been the case. But it was far more shocking. My dad was calling to cancel. He had to cancel because he had just been called moments before by my Cousin Terreye. She called to tell him her mother(His younger sister) had just passed away. This caught me off guard. So I can only imagine on how much it threw my dad off. My parents waited for us at the restaurant and met with Cassie's parents for a few minuets before rushing off to my aunt and uncles house.

I went to nervous and excited to sad and somber so quickly. I am pretty sure this is similar to how the rest of the family felt. This was so unexpected, There was no warning. We did not get that call saying she had took a turn for the worst, She was supposedly a little sick and put to bed to rest. No final good byes.

So this is mine.

I will miss you Aunt Clara. I will miss you giving me little jabs when I cam to visit you at home and at work. I will miss you calling me about computer problems. I am sorry that I did not make the time to come over and visit more often. I should have learned sooner that if work takes over your life it's just not worth it. I thank you for all the years of support that you have given me and my family. The Good sister and more importantly Great friend that you have been to my father. We thank you for the time that we had. We all love you and will miss you.

Love, The Annoying one.

Enguagement pictures.

2009-05-01T08:11:00.003-06:00

I was so nervous yesterday that the engagement pictures were going to be busy and allot of blah. But they were great. I had allot of fun. got a good workout walking everywhere and holding a few crouching poses for longer than I expected. All good and allot of fun.

I think Cassie and my lips, and cheeks were both soar from all the kissing and smiling for 3 hours. But it was worth it. We will now have pictures for our kids to laugh at our outfits in 10 to 20 years. But it will show us as we are young. Something to say " Hey I was extremely attractive when I was younger also!"

Altogether it was a fun ride and good fun. Maybe you will even see me floating away with a balloon. Who knows what is next.

2009-04-24T10:09:00.003-06:00

AWW. Friday. The day of days. The day of Bliss. The day I get off of work before noon. What else can you say. Friday is the start of the weekend and in my case almost gives me a 3 day weekend. How fridays just give me joy. How fridays give me time to catch up on all the other crap I should have done during the week.

Wedding Day Jitters

2009-04-23T08:45:00.005-06:00

Ok me and my Hunny bunny, Cassie Belle. Have been working on our wedding for a few months now. Some things I like some things I am indiffrent. Some things I have too strong of an opinion on. But I think that Cassie would agree with me when I say. I want this whole process to be over. It is the most stressful thing ever. I swear Cassie is going to crack any day now.

I am ready to move into our new place. Although I will be there for about two weeks before cassie actually moves in. I am excited to start a new chapter in my life.

So my wedding day jitters are not about wanting to get out. But to get the wedding day planned and over.

Working for a living.

2009-04-22T10:18:00.003-06:00

Well as I sit here with my two screens on earthday. (Yes I use them both. Right now I have autocad and Revit open. So not only am I using them I am sure I am stressing out the processor on my work computer. ) I was thinking about how my workout progress is going.

Today I did Kempo. This is one of the more entertaining workouts. Maybe it is just because I like to fake hit things. Or maybe it is because I have alot of agression twords the air which constantly gets in the way. But I get to punching and kicking and by the time I think to look at the clock. a half hour has easily passed away if not 40 min. I always want more. This is a 1 hour workout. And the shirts I wear during these workouts can only be worn again after I wash them, as they are drentched on sweat which makes them really stinkey.

Admittedly this morning I looked at the workout schedule and was dissapointed that it was not the X Stretch this morning. (that is tomorrow.) But after the initial warm up and stretches I was ready to go. I was punching smoother today than normal and felt myself moving more. which would make the punches hurt more if I actually hit you. I don't hit that hard anyway so don't worry. But I felt energetic this morning after my lathargic start. when we were set to do 30 punches or kicks I did 32. when we did our breakes I dade sure to keep my heart rate up and actually did extra jumping jacks. I figure 1 or 2 extra of those will not hurt me. I had a good workout this morning. I cannot complain. Yea. Maybe 4:30 was a little early for me to wake up this morning and my pillow was extra heavy but one I got up and shook off the sleeping fairy dust, I was good to go.

So I am happy to say my progress is going well. I have hit my 3-1/2 week mark. I am feeling good. I am feeling strong. My kicks are not only higher but stronger and more cordinated. My punches flow. My push ups have incresed. My pull ups have more than doubled. my weight has dropped, and my energy has gained. Big change from 4 weeks ago.

My P90X Workout review and updates.

2009-04-16T10:26:00.006-06:00

Well I thought I should update my blog. and also tell about the new workout program I am on. This one I hope to keep updated for the full time that I am on this program. P90X.

So far I am in my 3rd week. I have noticed alot of strength and stamina changes. My finacee has said she has noticed that I am slimmer. So I am getting what I want (strength) and she is getting what she wants (A slimmer Jake).

So far my workouts consits of alot of pushups and pullups on Mondays(chest and back). and then jumping around on Tuesdays (Plyometrics), Curls, curls, curls and tricept, tricept, tricept on Wednesdays (Arms and Tricepts). and then Massive losses of water followed by Death on Thursdays (Yoga). and then Friday I do alot of squats and

pull ups. Or in my case falling down and getting back up alot. (Legs and back) Finally Saturdays I learn how to kick you A** if you try to bother me during my workout. (Kempo) and then Sundays are a rest and streach day. and then I start it all over again. But that is only the first 3 weeks. Which I am just finishing up. the 4th week Will be a low impact week. So I will do alot more cardio and keep on the Yoga.

Now when I started this I was just on the verge of not being able to make it. So if you have not been the the gym in months. or are overweight I do not reccommend this workout. Find something else or make sure your fully comitted before you invest in these DVDs.

They have a test online to see if your are ready for this program. Try it and see how you do. If you pass all of them or only fall slightly short on one maybe two of the workouts. You can handle these workouts. But do not expect to keep up with the people on the video for atleast a few weeks if not more.

The Next picture is not for the weak of heart or those that are sensative to light or easily blinded. Also those that like to make jokes or any other inapropriate comments Plase do not.

This is my start up picture.

Yes the workout might help the gut. But I do not think it will help the tan or lack there of.

I will be taking a new picture in a few weeks. Hopefully I can say I look better then.

My Appologies

2009-03-02T16:59:00.003-07:00

I figure in my Last few posts I have said a few harsh words. I am not saying I take back what I have said. But more how I said it. I will still stand that I have my right to my opinions and beliefs. But I want those others to know I respect their opinions also. I think that this is a great country. We all have the right to state our opinions and thoughts. Sometimes that means that what we want does not happen. The popular vote is what we live by. this is suppose to be a country for the people by the people. Not a country for the few by the few.

I think this makes us stronger. I do not like to see either side get mocked or be mocked. I have seen both the liberal media and conservative media take too many cheap shots at each other. Claiming victory were there was no clear winner or no war in the first place.

I will openly admit that I am republican, or conservative. But I also admit that I am sometimes wrong or do not have all the facts. But I do hope that I can say that I strive to understand others thoughts that are around me.

I would like to thank the few that do take the time to read my blog. I try to mix things up.

Sean Penn... My Children will not be ashamed of me!!!

2009-02-25T15:29:00.005-07:00

I am sick and tired of the gay community and the accept everything I do mentality!

I do not have to accept you. Same as I don't have to accept everyone as my friends. It does not mean I will attack you. It does not mean that I will rip into your lifestyle. But it does mean I will stand up for what I know is right, when you try to force the opposite upon me.

Where I get upset with Sean Penn. Is in his Oscar Speach where he said those who voted against gay marriage. There children will be ashamed of them. Well if my children are ashamed of me for believeing that marriage is between a man and a woman. Well then My children are wrong and this society that is very quickly spinning out of control would be to blame.

We do not have the right to make a choice but not pay the consiquences. I can't drive my car off of a cliff and expect not do die or get hurt real bad. I can't decide to drink bad milk and not expect to get sick off of it. I cannot get caught speeding, Admit that I was speeding and then expect the Judge to let me go with out paying for it in some way shape or form, just because she feels sorry for me.

Marriage is between a man and a woman. Sean penn and alot of the hollywood liberals do not seem to know this. But marriage is not just that. Marriage is the start of a family. Start of your family. Sure married couples sometimes adopt. But that is an option or in some cases the only choice after the natural options have been tryed and failed. Gay and lesbien couples cannot produce a family. They can be part of one. I am sure they can be loving parents. But just because they hear the word marriage does not mean that they know what it is and it does not mean they are entitled to it.

Recently there was a news article that a 9 year old girl dieing of cancer married her 7 year old boyfriend. Alot of people say this is cute, or sweet. The courage of a child with cancer. But these 2 children do not understand what love is. They only know that thier parents are married and that others get married when they find the one they love. Maybe one day Sean Penn will also say that my children will be ashamed of me because I would not let them also get married when they are inbetween the ages of 7 to 9.

I will really be a horrible father. I mean how dare I! I will not let children get married. I will never agree to gay marriage. I will not be the one responsable for this worlds currupt behavior. the self destruct mode that we are in. I will no more contribute to the poison of society.

Now I do agree that the Gay community should have some civil rights and the church has given a statement that I agree with. Things like the ability to go see loved ones. Recieve health and tax benifits. But the word marriage is a holy one. and should not be tained.

As I was looking up the LDS churches stance on gay marriages and civil unions. Most of it was filled with Anti-Mormon, greater than though, gay and lesbien bigots. But one I read was a guy claiming to have been in the church for 30 years. Gone on a mission, went to BYU, ect. You know they type. He possibly was a know it all ASS then, and he has continued it now, just outside of the church at this time. It is his goal to indocterinate all us LDS morons in the error of our ways. I am sure just as he found it his duty on his mission and in his church and work. Before ailinating everyone because he "Found the Truth about the LDS church!!!" his Blog is riddled with anti-mormon conspiracy theories. All of wich only have a fraction of truth mixed in with lies and speculation. might I add,. Just like the Gay community protesting the church with thier false doctorines and fabrications.

This is what I wrote to him. I decided it best not to post it on his blog because it would only send him in an even further in his downward spiral hate for mankind.

You may have spent 30 years in the church. Gone on a mission. Done all the so called church things. But you never truly understood what the church is all about. Your comments on the church are unfounded and shows your pure blindness to it. You need to re-educate yourself.

Marriage is not a right. The church is not against the civil unions of gays and lesbians. They should have many civil rights. If your really interested in it. You should go look up the churches official stance. Also It was not in Utah that the law was past. It was in California. The Gay community is just as prominent as the LDS community. So this means more people agree with the LDS meaning of marriage than The Gay community meaning. Also, Do we not have the same right to speak out against gay and you and the Gay community have to speak for it? Do you not respect others opinions? Do you hold yourself above others? Are you a better than me? or in this case. Are you a better than president Hinckley was? I think not. I am sorry in your self pity that you decided to leave the church. But it was always said that those that leave the church will be the ones to fight the hardest against it. You justify your deeds by saying the church is wrong and you are right. You will one day realize that you are wrong. Do you know what the church will do on that day that you come crying and crawling back to them. They will accept you with open arms.

In conclusion. Sean Penn. You need to get off your high horse. Your children and your childrens children will pay for the atrocities you peddle. You recieved your votes for an oscar because of your

portrayal of a gay man. Not for your ability to act.

The Gay community, Leave me alone. Do not try to force your ways upon me

or others. You will meet resistance and if continued hatred. neither of which

you are looking for.

Update:

to the comment.

I am not ashamed because the church sends millions of dollars in aid to the poor. I support a church that gives to those in need. I am in support for a law that was voted on before by the people in California that a judge illegally overturned. So they voted on it again and took back their rights. I am in support of people "being divorced" if it was illigal in the first place. I support those that fight for thier right. I do not mind if the gays fight for rights as they do have that right. But Marriage is not a right. The supporters of gay Marriage do not know what marriage is about they are a bunch of bleeding heart, give everyone what they want and don't deserve cry babies.

If your child is gay, you should turn your back on them. But if you don't like it. It does not mean you have to support them in it. I do not support gay marriage, I have that right. Gays and liberals would take that away from me if they could so so that they can get what they want.

I will not and cannot tolerate gay marriage. It goes against everything natural. Gays are only allowed to adopt and start a family because we as a society allow girls to become mothers at 14. We as a society teach ourselves not to be a family.

The church in its statement about gay Marriage said they were not anti-gay but pro family. Gay people will try to use this pure term against them. But at the heart of it. A gay couple is not a family. They cannot naturally start a family. You do not truly get both sides of the family. I do not say that gay people are or would be bad parents. In many cases they are possibly better parents to an adopted child than the ones that gave them up. But that does not give them the right to marriage. Otherwise we might as well let all the pedofiles, animal lovers, children, ect. Get married also. Because once Gays get the right one or all of those will be next. Everyone has an agenda. Not just the gays or the blacks or the liberals, or any other group. I stand for my rights. The rights that this country gave me. I am ashamed of anyone that sheds their beliefs to make someone happy. I am ashamed of those that consider themselves religious but still support this cause. I am ashamed of they gay community for being so selfish. Spending all this time and money to make gay marriage legal. When there are starving children that they could help. I am ashamed of those that will try to take away my rights and try to tie my tounge so that they can pass a law that very little of the people in this country support and then they attack me when I do or say anything. I am ashamed of those that try to call me a bigot because I do not believe in thier cause. Shame, Shame, Shame on you all.

Paying for and Planning a wedding? I have no good advice.

2009-02-20T09:16:00.003-07:00

Ok so recently I got enguaged to a wonderful woman. We are now getting married in june.

Now comes the hard part. I always heard of all the fun things about weddings. Especially the wedding night! Wink Wink. But I have not ever seen in any of the wedding movies the part where you feel like your pockets are empty and your sanity dropping like a rock. I know what is going threw my head. So I feel Sorry for my fiancee Cassie, Because she has the hard end of the deal. Traditionally the Man just has to show up to where the soon to be bride tells him to. She Gets all the inital stress I guess you would say.

But now where my pockets begin to feel empty. I did not realize that everyone else in this country that gets married was so rich. I mean honestly after a ring and a honneymoon. I figure I will have to mortgage my house that I have not bought yet. People throw the word thousands out there, like it is nothing. "Oh how much is this?" says I. To which they reply "Oh only a few thousand." I usually turn pale and have to catch myself before I faint. I hope that is how most guys feel, so that I can say that I am not that big of a dork. Also I hope that I hide it well. I know cassie is trying to keep things resonable.

Oh I am driving myself crazy.

2009-02-20T07:37:00.002-07:00

So recently I have been looking all over the internet for cheap deals on anything I might want. Recently I have found a auction website called Swoopo.com. I just tend to watch it. I have seen some people get really good deals and others I think got screwed. But I just keep watching . thrying to see if I can find a pattern. Something that will help me to get that really good deal before I jump in head first.

I have found so far that you need to watch it like a hawk. You need to find the things you want. Do not just bid on everything. Early mornings seems to be a good time. But you have to be willing to spend some money before you even get the deal. Swoopo charges $0.75 each bid. Then if you win you pay what ever the price was when you finally win. Sometimes it in extremly cheap. Othertimes I have noticed that people are paying the same price or more as if they went to a store.

So I sit and wait. Hopeing I will find that place to bid. that I will make a great deal and win a great prize. Oh how I am driving myself insane. I better get back to it though. I have to find out all the otherways I have nissed out on something expensive for a cheap price.

Not everyone is alike.

2009-02-18T10:57:00.004-07:00

I have been looking over the past few months and years to my life and I have noticed one thing that almost everyone seems to have in common. They think everyone should be like them.

I will explain.

I don't drink. I have sipped a few differen drinks out of curiosity and have decided that it is in no way for me. I hate the taste, I do not like the places you have to go to get the "Good Stuff" and I don't like the lifestyle. But I don't mind that someone else decides to drink, as long as they do it responsibly. But I have been told my many a drinker that I have just tried the "Wrong drink" and they always will recommend a different one. Which I will reply with "I am just not interested" But always they will just say I have tried the wrong drink, It was mixed wrong, you tried the wrong brand. But in the end I know it's just, I do not like it. it is not for me.

But this is not just to the drinkers or "Worldly People". Religion does it also. one of those is that if you don't see something as a miracle. You see it as good people, Good luck, or anything else. Not that you deny there is a god. Just that you don't think he controls everyone like a puppet. We all struggle with prayer, to which someone always answers with something like "You don't pray right". I have been guilty of this myself being of the mind that most people are lazy and want things given to them. It is not right of me to say, but sadly I do.

Being LDS, I also hear allot about the temple. I do not hate the temple. I have liked to go. But there are some things that have made me UN-easy in the past. The typical response I have heard is. "You just have to go more often." Or "You did not go in with the right frame of mind." All these answers are the same answers a drinker will give me. Just worded differently. If I do not like something. Is that not my choice anymore. If I feel out of place or have a distaste for something that is my choice.

Most people accept that I do not like tomatoes. Why can't they accept that I don't like some temple ordnance. Or that I just do not like to drink alcohol. Why can't the atheist accept that I believe in god. why cant democrats accept that I think government should have a much smaller roll. Why cant the rich and the poor accept that the other is not a snob or lazy trash. My thought is, They want you to be like them. They want you to just accept and love everything they do. Being different to people is considered bad.

Be Still My beating Heart

2008-12-02T14:38:00.010-07:00

Ok Looking on the Web today I saw something that made my heart go pitter patter. And of all things a game. But not just any game a game that includes action. and adventure unlike many I have ever seen in the past. A game that brings me back to the days when Indiana jones was at his peek. and Laura croft tomb raider was all the reage. It took concepts from the two and combined them togeather and then added alot of it's own personality to make one of the greatest games of 2007.

This is one of those games that can bring everyone togeather. Those that don't like to play will still love to watch this fun and very interesting story. My Girl Cassie Belle although not a big fan of video games loved to watch and has even played some. It is one of very few games that I have played threw multipule times. The scenery is Beautiful. Running threw the game is litke looking at a painting. I almost wished at times I could have had a camera in the game to take pictures of some of the sunsets. Then at the end of the game I felt like I was saying good bye to old friends.

Pictured above are the two of the friends in the game Nathan who is the main charater and Sully who is his partner in crime. The personalitys of these two is unlike any other game I have seen. they banter back and forth and you get the feeling these two digital characters really have known eachother for a long time.

So if you have not played Uncharted Drakes Fortune. I would highly recommend it. You will laugh, Cry, Jump with both fear and joy. You will be able to walk away with the feeling of watching an indiana jones movie for the first time. You will feel like you did when you walked out of George Lucas or Stephen Speelburgs older movies. You know before they got old and lost the desire to push the limits and the need to prove themselves. This is one of the great games to have been made.

And now to move onto the Reason for this post. The reason my heart jumped. The reason I am so excited. The sequal to one of the greatest games made. Uncharted 2: Among Thieves

America full of Dreams and Bull

2008-11-11T09:54:00.004-07:00

Bush has had one of the most difficult Presidencys ever. Failure is harsh words for someone that has been threw so much and done so much for this country.

He was there at the first of his presidency with one of the most brutal attacks on this or any other country. An attack that was on Civilians and not the Military. He was there and he was strong and Vowed to keep us safe from attacks like that from years to come and Although he may have made some bad decisions during that time. We have been safe from many terrorist attacks. But he did not have some of our soldiers show no class and torture prisoners. He was the one that issued the formal apology for someone elses mistake.
We Give him grief on the failure of the people of New Orleans. The failure of the under maintained Levees that broke under the pressure of one of the most horrific Hurricans this country has seen. We give him grief because Aid was not there immediatly. But I did not see many of the people of new orleans helping themselves to anything other than free aid and free store electronics. They did not have to go in and clean up the dead bodys, they asked everyone else in the country to do it. They did not all go in and rebuild thier city. They asked the rest of us to do it. Bush did not fail then. We did. We just have passed the blame onto him. Shame on America not on Bush.
Bush may not have been the best President this country has ever seen but he is not the worst. He made decisions when no one else wanted to. He was there for this country and we turned our backs on him. Shame on us. Shame on us for being so petty. Shame on us for being so weak. Shame on us for being so greedy. No wonder the rest of the world hates US.
He knows he is not well liked. But now he is still trying to make a gracefull exit. I applaude him on being civil when no one else seems to be able to.

Prop 8 and how it is right.

2008-11-11T08:45:00.000-07:00

Proposition 8 Passed recently in California amongst a few other states. Talking with a friend today I have found a few reasons that prove that in todays sociect it is right and that the opposition has not need to take cheap shots at the LDS religion who was a large supporter of it.

First off. Gay marriage was forced upon many People in this country by a supreme court judge that with his own reasons. Bypassing millions of voters in California thoughts and opinions for the few. This country is built upon Democracy. The many rule over the few. The vioce of the people run this country and not the few. So if the people of this country or any particular state do not want to support something. Weather it is gay marriage or anything else. We as a people have that right.

Second is the fact that Marriage is something that was orriginally supported by Religions. weather it was jewish, catholic, Muslim, or many other. So Marriage is a religious Cerimony. So Religion has every right to state and hold firm to saying that Gay marriage is against the will of god. It is thier stance.

Third is that Religions and people have the same right to an opinion against Gay marriage that the Gays and Lesbiens and thier supporters have for it. An opinion is just that. Its not law until the people make it a law. And in this case opinion is that people are against gay marriage.

This country is under fire, Religions may call it the Devil. I call it the Devious and Evil. Wether it's gays, Enviromentalists or just religious fanatics and any other group. Those that have a little knowledge saying they know everything. Admitting weakness in nothing. And not willing to look at anybody elses opinion as valid. They are only for themselves. They are showing what this country is becomming. We are spoiled brats. We get what we want how we want and when we do not get it. we throw a temper tantrum. We cry and stomp our feet. We tell everyone that it is not fair. Pass blam and tell lies. We put others below us. we are of no use to the world.

As a country we need to stand up for these things. We need to have a voice of reason. We need to stop listening to screw ups like Madonna and Joy Bayhar. Yes, they have a right to thier opinion like anyone else. But they stand for a country that does not want any responsability. They want anything and everything at all times. They want to do what they want when they want. Celebrities are not always the best people to ask for an opinion. We need a country with morals. A country that will not cry at the drop of a pin. A country that not only watches out for others but ourselves.

Hidden Demons

2008-10-29T09:15:00.005-06:00

Last Night I was awoken with a startle from one of my dreams. The Dream Was largly based on me running around in this strange area. Honeslty I think it was inspired from the game I just purchased yesterday, "Little Big Planet". But I was not bothered by that. Although odd it was quite the enjoyable dream. But what Startled me was the short but sudden change that happened in the dream.

As I was saying I was wondering around. It was an area that I had just cleaned up myself and was very proud. Not even a speck of dust was to be seen anywhere and it was quite the large area. I was almost hovering around I was moving so fast. Alot of ups and downs. Stairs and solid wooden boxes. It was a very colorful dream.

After I had run away for a while. I noticed a very dusty area I had not seen before. I went in and it actually looked alot like a room in my parents basement except slightly larger and where there is a concrete wall was a large opening into what looked to me like avery nice home theater room. Well I started to walk over to the room and noticed some sort of demond in the room, smoking what looked like a cigar. although I was not sure. I only saw his arm and a slight profile of his face. He called my name with the frightening deep crackly voice. It starteled me so much that I woke up right then.

I woke up with such a fright that I am not sure if the voice was part of my dream or if it was something in my room. because I work up mid word but heard the whole word. It really freaked me out. But I like to consider myself fairly brave at times. So after a very quick scan of my room I went back to sleep. But still it gave me quite the scare and really made me think. What did he represent. What inner demonds do I have that I have either forgotten abot or apparently do not know about. What is in my dusty unused basement.

The Woman I intend(ed) to marry.

2008-10-22T13:38:00.001-06:00

(This is something that I wrote a few months back. I can say in many ways I do still feel the same but I feel it is all for not. I cannot talk to me Belle anymore. I do not feel she wants to see me anymore. But I would take her back if I knew she was still mine. But I don't know if that will ever happen.)

8/9/08

I have the most beautiful woman around me. she has the softest skin and a shine in her face. spunk in her attitude mixed in with a little sass and pride. I love my Belle and I want to world to know that. She is my world and what my life was ment for. I love to pamper her and buy her gifts and flowers, candies and all the little things that let her know that I am hers. I don't want to know what life is without her ever again. She is my ray of sunshine and my compas threw life. She is my streangth, will, & power. She can always put a smile on my face or make me cry when she is upset. I love to have her near me and to smell her close. I love to hold her and squeeze her and never want to let go. I love her laugh and I love to tickle her even when she begs me to stop. I like to encourage her to prove her streangths. I want to be her sugar dady and she can be my sugar mamma. Not with money but with hugs and kisses. I love my Cassandra Bell Mcmanama

Pick Your Poison.

2008-10-22T13:21:00.000-06:00

I though I would give some of my thoughts on the whole McCain/Obama Presidential race. First of all I do not think either man is a devil or a saint. They are both men with flaws. Something that the American public seems incapable of seeing on either side. One is always viewed as incompitent or evil just depending on what side you vote for.

The sides can and are very diffrent. This is part of the root to the problem in America these days. "If your not arguing with someone then how could either of you be right?" for some people there has to be constant conflict, constant argument, constant hatred of the opposing team. Although this has always been part of life I believe that the media has brought it more to light. Giving people more to get upset about and more to argue about.

Talking around the cooler use to be the extent of most light harted but heated debates. Now we make instant comments on someones news article, or even on someones blog. Fights break out on this for multipule reasons. either someone does actually disagree with you, or someone is just looking for a fight. One is just fine and part of how life should be. The other is a childish act by someone.

So what does the media and are own actions have to do with the canidates? Well first of all Dirty politics in the past of back-biteing and false or twisted acusations has now started to show it's self in our daily lives. The politicians do not have to do the dirty politics anymore. The news does it for them and we add fuel to the fire. News stations rarely just give us the facts anymore. They have to interpret it for us also. They have to tell us what we think. They give us our opinion. Why? Because we told them to do it.

Now back to the presidential election. How do we choose our next President? How do we choose the next leader of the free world? I mean a debate would normally be a good thing. But these days politicians only tell us what we want to hear. They can fix the economy! They will fix all the faults of what the previous president or previous party! The economy will improve our incomes will go up and our stress levels will go down. They will fight for the people. The Middle and lower class. The working man/woman. They will do better than the other canidate. They will save us from ourselves. I am thinking I have heard this all before. I am hearing this from McCaine but more importantly I am hearing it from Obama - The outed parties for the past 8 years presidential canidate. Can we go off what they tell us? No!!! They have just as much of an idea on whats going to happen tomorrow as anyone else in the world. They are public speakers and are just trying to sell us what we already have.

So how about thier past? I mean Bill Clinton always wanted to be president, Ronald Reagon wall a well respected Actor. Two diffrent people for two diffrent background. We found faults with both. We have always found the faults in our leaders. But it just proves that we cannot go by who the person shows himself as.

Basically I don't think either canidate is perfect for the job. I think both would do great things for this country and both would struggle greatly with other things. So Pick your poison.

I am a flood victim

2008-09-29T16:12:00.002-06:00

This past Friday I came home after going to work running errands getting some lunch with my mom and then going to the gym to find my bedroom carpet soaking wet. It was like walking on a sponge. every step and the carpet would just drain water all over sinking out deeper each time. a small pond surrounding your foot and then dissapering back into the floor as you took another step.

So I had to move everything out. Take apart my bed and move my nightstand and my very heavy dresser. (Ok honestly I had the carpet people move the dresser when they came to drain and clean the carpet. ) But still I did alot of work. I have gathered alot of crap over the past 2 years.

So the past few days I have been sleeping on an air mattress in a now extra bedroom while big industrial fans blow the carpet in my room dry.

I do hope to be back in my bed tonight or possibly tomorrow. But you never know for sure.

Oh how long has it been.

2008-08-21T11:50:00.004-06:00

I have been asked alot recently how often I have been praying. By many diffrent people, not just one or two. I do not remember the last time that I got down on my kneese and prayed. I have never been one to say prayers in the first place. I do not like to ask for help. Maybe I am to stubborn, or maybe I am just too scared. Prayer just mean to me that I am going to be asking for help. Help for something that I should be able to do myself.

There is Beauty all around... Even when your at home.

2008-08-09T19:58:00.006-06:00

Ha ha making a church song to fit my needs. So I have took a few pictures with my new phone. I love it. I have the new LG Dare from Verizon and I am still loving it. and here are some reasons why.

First of all My phone takes panoramic pictures :) this is a vew of the mountains from the park about 30 sec. from my home. it's a nice small little park. with a great view. Those are Beautiful mountains if I do say so myself.

this is the front view from my porch over the salt lake valley. it was a nice sunset. and they have always been difficult to catch with a camera phone. But I think this turned out quite well.

I do think I live in a very pretty area.

Sitting by the kitchen dreaming of food.

2008-08-08T10:26:00.005-06:00

So I have been at my new office for a few weeks now. I have really been slacking on updating my blog and I am sorry to those 2 readers. So here is an update hopefully a very long and interesting one.

My new office is very nice I like all my bosses depending on the day and the job I can have up to 5 but usually it is just one or two. As you can see my desk is right by the break room. So I am getting up and drinking alot more water these days. A good thing but also the bathroom is a little further away and I am taking more of those breaks also. Ha it's funny how life evens out.
Also as you can see my life as a draftsman is full of clutter. paper paper everywhere comming at random times and coming in bulk. Maybe I have no choice but to be cluttered like this or maybe I just learned it from family. Either way I feel like a complete slob 5 days of the week.
But one of the best things of all is the fact that I am able to have money in the bank. I am not spending it on gas or snacks. or half as much soda "Water Breaks!!!" they are great.
I am still doing some projects in Revit. Possibly I will be taking some revit classes sometime soon and also I will be looking into taking some classes for a program called Microstation. I have not heard wonderful things about the program. But many govermenet entities require it. You know... To make things more difficult and less cost efficent. I love how my tax dollars are spent.
So then other news on the office front was the loss of the Junior Engineer at my office. I guess things were not working for either side and he was let go after around 2 months. So that added alot of pressure onto everyone in the company. Well atleast the draftsman that would be needing to pick up the slack and get to know his project that includes me. I think I am safe for atleast another two weeks. Actually out of what I heard I am safe for alot longer than that unless I really screw up. But you never know. I am hourly so that means first to be let go if things go badly.
On a good note. They have unofficially that this is the year that they take the entire company to Disneyland for a weekend. I don't have much more innfomation except for the fact that it will be sometime in early December. Also I am allowed and encouraged to bring one person along with me. As of two weeks ago I don't know who that is anymore. But that is another story I am still trying to cope with myself and would completly negate how I started this paragraph.
So I guess that just about covers it. I am doing well. I am making money and if I do well I will make more. and I have no other life to speak of still. Getting up and trying to get to work by 7am everyday is still a pain but I think I am getting better.

A new way and a new life

2008-06-17T13:24:00.003-06:00

So I have already told most if not all of my family and most of my friends. But soon I will be drafting for a much bigger company a little more money and I will be alot closer to home. I could even take the option to go home for lunch. Something I cant justify now because driving home and back would take me an hour already.
I am excited that i will not be spending hours and hours on small house additions that should only take me a hour total on the job but then takes longer because of the 50,000 changes that come over the next few days and months. People, It's only a garage addition!!!!
I am excited because I will have the option to go to lunch with my dad more often since he will be working what will now seem like just around the corner. We will be by the food mecca of Draper. So variety will be nice.
I am excited because I will have to pay way less money on Gas to get to work on a daily basis. I spend currently $60 a week on gas if not more. Somthing that even 5 years ago I would have passed out and nearly died after seeing.
I am not excited because it means no more shorts to work and I might even have to wear a collared shirt. I think the Devil came up with the idea of a collared shirt so that we could waste material and have it rub the skin on our necks raw and possibly even give us horrible rashes. Or maybe it was the skin care people that got togeather with the clothing designers and they both decided it was a good way to make a buck. Eitherway I am going to have to find a way around wearing a collar without quitting or loseing my new job.
I am excited because my current boss will still be my boss. I won't have to total change in how I see redlines and how things are communicated to me right away.
I am excited because instead of half my medical being paid it will all be paid. So I can be a happy camper.
I am excited because I will have a way to move up in this company if I work hard. I will be able to earn more money and I will be able to pay off bills and life a better life.

Too many Questions

2008-05-27T11:05:00.005-06:00

Ok you may be wondering why I am showing this Picture and Why I am not in it. Well that would be because I was not there. I was not informed about it and I was apperently not invited.

Yes this is a Picture of a now married friend of mine. (top left corner) That I have known since 4th grade when he moved into my neighborhood and into my school. We were great friends all the way threw highschool and saw alot of each other up until he left for his mission. I left a little later than he did. so we did not see each other or hear much from each other for about 3 years.

But maybe that is where life laughs at all of us, is the good connections that we lose over time. The things that made me sad. How busy we get and the friends we lose because of it. Well Over the past few years I have not seen or heard much from My friend lance. I got home and talked to him while I was bed ridden for about 3 weeks after some sergury. He said he was over at his parents and would be right over. I did not see or hear from him after that phone conversation for over a year. He never came over. When I asked him later he told me he forgot. So I guess I must have been his favorite friend ever to be forgotten 5 min. after our conversation. I was depressed at that time and really I feel it has affected me for years and to this day on how I react to things. Lance showing up that day would had made me feel better. Not that lance was the only one I didn't see during that time.

But Now I have to ask the Question. Are Lance and I still friends? I hear that he is enguaged from a mutual friend that heard from his sister threw myspace or facebook. So neither of us heard directly, or thats what I understand. I very rarely hear from lance. Last time I talked to him he called me on accident. So maybe I should just drop him because we really have not been friends for a few years now. Maybe he thinks he is better than me because he has been studying to be a lawyer. Maybe we were never that great of friends in the first place. Maybe I was just a stepping stone and someone for him to use to make himself feel better. Or maybe I did something to piss him off enough that he would not even think of inviting me to his wedding, and because of that he will not be invited to mine. Because why have someone around that does not want to be there or see you in the first place.

Learning a new way. Revit.

2008-04-22T16:14:00.006-06:00

Ok for most people that have been around me for the past month or 3 have possibly heard me talk about the new drafting program I am learning called Revit. This program has been out for about 3 or 4 years now. But Up untill now there has not been a big reason to buy it. Specifically for engineers. But now we are getting more and more requests for us to start working on it. So here I am. Lucky for me I know enough about drafting and 3D, that I am not completly lost.

But I now have got to a point where I actually need to read all the help files and tutorials so that I can make a cleaner better drawing. But I do love to do some projects on revit. Adding in floor and roof joists is just fast and clean. I just pick a room and it can figure out the walls and beams and depending what wall you are on it will decide what direction the beams will be going. Also making it easier for me I can quickly change beam sizes that will change most notes that I have linked to it like Beam Schedules.

All columns go up and threw and since this is a 3D drawing. It takes out all the cordination that is usually transfered inbetween drawings. So one a drawing has been set up, any changes are much easier and less time consuming.

But this is still lacking some things I would like. Details can be difficult. Unless you are both designing and drafting. That is not something I do on a normal basis. So I still do most details in Autocad and then import them into Revit. Its also difficult to place roof beams in specific places. since so many windows and door heights are diffrent. It would be nice to be able to place a beam over a doorway. Also some I have noticed that Revit Structure shows drawings like an architect would show them. My biggest issues so far is the views. I want to place a beam over a doorway. But so far I have found the best way to do that is go to the lower level and find the door ways and then place the beams and tell them they are in the next level up. But then there is another issue. Because the beams show up but the doorways and window openings do not, or iF I lower my view cuts it either cuts out some things that are higher that I do want to see or or cuts out beams that are higher. But these might all be things that I might learn how to adjust later.

But this is they way engineering and drafting is going. 3D is a better way to work with others. because you pdate anything and all other views like elevations and details are updated also along with corresponding floor plans. I am excited to learn all of this.

**UPDATE**

I think I have decided to post a new lessong or review on the diffrent tools of Revit as I learn them. I will start with what I know and when I get to it I will post what I learn. First will be grids. Look forward to it.

I was Tagged!!!

2008-04-10T13:05:00.007-06:00

A: Each player lists 6 facts/habits about themselves.

B: At the end of the post, the player then tags 6 people and posts their names; then goes to their blogs, leaves them a comment letting them know that they have been tagged and invites them to read your blog.

1. I constantly check my e-mail and myspace accounts. although I do not always reply to them because I say to myself I will later and then I forget.

2. I WRITE IN CAPS ALOT BECAUSE I AM DRAFTING MOST OF THE TIME THAT I AM ON A COMPUTER. SO I AM NOT REALLY YELLING AT YOU. I AM JUST NOT TAKING THE TIME TO HIT THE CAPS LOCK BUTTON.

3. I am usually ready early for anyplace that I am going. If I am late it's because I got the time wrong or I was waiting on someone.

4. I love to sit and Spec out new computers in my spare time. If I could build a computer once a week I would be happy. But that is an expensive hobby

5. Even though I don't go every day. I love to go jogging and if I had the time during the day I would go everyday. But I don't like to jog in the cold so that cuts out most mornings and nights right now.

6. I am currently Addicted to buffets. Right now I am in love with Sweet Tomatoes. Honestly I never thought I would be like my dad and crave a good salad this often. But dang it!!! I make an good salad at sweet tomatoes.

So I don't have 6 people to tagg. I know pathetic. But I am tagging the Burton Family and Kevin and Lachelle.

Rooting for the underdog.

2008-03-19T16:44:00.004-06:00

I have an issue and most people are starting to get on my nerves with this. But why does everyone have to root for the underdog? is it they desire change because thier life is crap? Is it just some stupid human desire to see someone who has not trained as hard or as long to win? is it that we want to be able to say that everyone we don't like is evil and the underdog is fighting for us? Then also who really is the underdog anyway? Do you cheer for Lex Luthor to defeat Superman? No we do not! Maybe that is self preservation though.
But why do we cheer on the guy that only got to where he is not because he was able to back stab everyone else that was better than him in the first place?
Examples of these things are mostly seen in sports. Like most recently the Superbowl. I wanted to see history happen by the Patriots making history by finishing off a tuff but otherwise undefeated season. But many people only wanted to see the Giant win soley for the fact to see the Patriots lose. Not that they were Giant fans all year, or that ultimatly the Giants were a better team. They just wanted the Giant to win just to see the Patriots loose. The Patriots who had worked hard all Season long to win every game. To do everything right on the field, and proved they were one of the best teams ever in football history.
Other examples of this I have seen have been in most every sporting event. Baseball, Basketball, Soccer, and even in the Olympics. But Sports is not the only place it is seen. Buisness is also a place where we cheer on the underdog. Not because the ultimatly bring us a much better product. But because we feel the Big corperation has done well for too long and needs to be de-throned.
I see this mostly in Game forums myself. Most notably recently is many game geeks that Bash Sony, then Microsoft, But all praise Nintendo. Now I will admit that Nintendo is not an evil company. But they are not a saint company by any means. You might read my review on Nintendo. Mainly the Nintendo Wii. Although it is a ok system. I still see why it should be the underdog. It is a bad console compared to the the PS3 and the Xbox 360. They gave you a reboxed gamecube with another crapy controller. But people defend the Wii as if it was thier own child. saying things like Nintendo did not want to compete with Microsoft or Sony, Or Nintendo does not care about graphics. This is all a lie in my opinion for Nintendo because they tanked with the Gamecube and the N64 was not much better. Nintendo did not want to compete with Sony or Microsoft because the cannot compete with them. Nintendo only success has been in the handheld market for the past 10 years. Thier Consoles have been lacking. and so have thier games with those consoles. That is why you see a new Mario Kart and Mario game each time. Those are the only games they can do right each time. But We in the end see them as the underdog and so we cheer them on. Praise them for thier short commings and buy and promote thier underdone & underworked console.
So why do we Root for the underdog? They don't really do anything for us. They don't give us pride in our country, or the ability to see history in the making. They don't give us anyting consistant. I will root for someone to finish a race but not to win it. But they only give us a moment that in the end is not always the best.

Printing Printing Printing.

2008-03-13T00:08:00.005-06:00

For anyone that Does not know. I own a small Print Buisness on the side. I wish it was a little smaller though in the fact that I have a very large Large format printer. 54" to be exact. But For the Past two days I have come across a snag. I am able to print The color just fine and the rip send it to the printer in good time.

But for the Past two days I have been trying to print a double sided banner. I don't think that my printer likes the material or me right now it keeps bunching up and printing big black marks on the banner media. Why? because it does not like me and the banner media is too soft and is getting pushed in. Also there must be an issue with the banner media. it just wrinkles up even more in certin areas. some tape was in one area. and I am not sure of the others. But either way. I am not happy and I am done with printing it. I might just have to farm it out to someone else and take the hit because I am just burning money now.

I never want to print a double sided banner ever again. Of course I said that before and I should have ment it then.

Summer is upon us. Finally!!!

2008-03-11T11:53:00.003-06:00

Yea! Finally warm weather is comming back to us. I have got so sick of snow for the past few months. From the mud packed wet slushy roads, and the freezing cold weather. To just the plain fact that sometimes after a little snow fall I could barely walk up my driveway to get inside much less drive up it to get into the garage. The Massive heaps of snow that we built up along with all the snow plows is finally melting away and I can actually see the road when backing out. The stores are getting parking spaces back. I have missed the sun. I know I am a sickly pale year round. But I still enjoy the ability to go outside and feel the warm sun on my skin. I Also get to go golfin now without fear of loosing my white gold ball in the snow. I only have to lose it in the sun as it flys way off course and into someones back yard. I can go hiking up in the mountains with out special snow shoes. I love the colors that come out in spring, and Finally I go go jogging outside again without all my body turning blue.

Console Comparison part 3: Sony Playstation 3

2008-03-10T13:53:00.007-06:00

Ok Finally the Playstation 3. This is my personal console of choise. There are still some issues and challenges with this console but also some great benefits.

Hardware: The playstation 3 utilizes not only the most powerful CPU for a console but also one of the most powerful CPU's compared to any computer out there. The playstations CPU is most notably known as the Cell Processor. It uses a completly diffrent architecture from any computer out there. It is a number crunching monster of a chip. The Cell was Developed by IBM and so has a similar core to that of the Xbox360's tri core processor. But where the Cell differs is that it only has one main core and then 8 mini cores called SPE's. These processors do not have the same ability as the main core, but are much faster at crunching numbers compared to a normal core. This in turn makes the Cell much faster and makes it run much cooler and power effective. The PS3 also has the RSX processor. I will admit I do not know much about this GPU. But it also has a slightly diffrent architecture. With the Cell and the RSX combined you have a very fast console that can push alot of high end graphics. The PS3 also comes with a slot loading Blu-ray player that is now being pushed as the next disk format to follow DVD. Bluray being able to hold 6 times the data on a single layer compared to a single DVD layer. and righ now they have 50 gig disks and are working on a 4 layer 100 gig disk. In comparison a dual layer DVD is 9 gig. The PS3 also comes in two SKU's and so I will only cover the high end version. All PS3's come with blutooth and wireless as standared. The ps3 also comes with a card reader and 4 usb slots. for transfering data and the USB is used for charging your controller. The controller it's self is connected by blutooth. the controller layout is the same compared to previos playstation consoles. Although the have impemented the Sixaxis tilt controls into the controller it's self. Currently controllers being sold now do not have the rumble feature. But Sony has now started making the Dual shock 3 controller with the rumble back in it, and will be launching stateside in the next few months. Also every PS3 comes with a hard drive. Varing on size depending on what SKU you bought. All of this comes at a premium price. But compared to other products and what you are getting. It is a very good deal.

Software: This is one of the diffrences between the PS3 and other consoles. You are able to install a few diffrent types of Linux on your PS3. This makes it very close to a full blown computer. I have not installed Linux on my PS3 although I have looked into it. The Ps3 like the other 2 consoles can play movies and music directly from the hard drive. But the Ps3 has one of the best Visulizers of anything out there. if you not familiar with what a visializer is. you may haveseen it on the windows media player any time you turn on a song and see the picture react to the music. The Ps3 also like the other consoles recieves free firmware updates either by internet or if you so want to can have a disk shipped to you for a small cost. This adds the ability for more fun options to be added to your PS3 at a later date. One of these is the Program called HOME. This is the Playstation version of nintendos Mii's and Microsofts Xbox live. It gives you stunning graphics and the ability to communicate with others around the world.

Games: Sony is another Company like Nintendo that is well known for it's games. Sony has also just recently passed Nintendo for overall game Quality. Where they get those numbers is they gather all the rateings for every game a company makes or produces and gathers the average score. This does not just include Sony, Nintendo, and Microsoft. But also includes companys like EA, Atari, Ubiosoft, Take Two, ect. Sony is not known for one type of game format either. They are known from raceing games to First Person shooters to Platformers and so on. It's most popular franchises show this. with games like Metal Gear Solid. Final Fantasy, Grand turismo, and Ratchet and Clank. All diffrent types of games but all that have set the standared in gameing. Sony also has some more great looking games comming to the console. Those like Little big planet and echochrome. 2008 and 2009 look to be good years for games for the playstation brand of games.

Upgrades and other: I put upgrades in this that I did not in the Other because of the Ability to change out the Hard drive in the Ps3 with a larger Laptop hard drive with out voiding the warrenty. Why would you want a larger hard drive? Media. Not only is Sony selling games online for download. But they will soon be selling the ability to download some of your favorite games and possibly movies right to the hard drive. This can take up space quickly. So if you decided that you were going to take advantage of this a larger hard drive would be a benefit.

Conclusion: For just games the PS3 is an expensive console. But if you like the playstation brand of games it is the way to go. If your looking for a blu-ray player. The PS3 is your best option in the market right now, and one of your cheaper options as it will always be updated and current to keep up witht the newer systems. The Biggest drawback to the PS3 right now is the Price being the most expensive of the consoles. Andother benefit/drawback is the web browser. The web browser is nice to have but is very limited on what sites it is compatible with. The PS3 is the console that gives you the most for your money. But if you don't have the money and don't want to wait for another price drop. You might be better off getting one of the other consoles if you know you will play some games. But I have played the other consoles and they have some great games, but I am still more satified with my PS3

Console Comparison Part 2: Microsoft Xbox360

2008-03-07T16:30:00.000-07:00

Ok Part 2 of my console review. Next up on the Chopping block is Microsofts Xbox 360Hardware: The Xbox 360 has some fairly impressive hardware. The Processor is a tri-core power PC developed by IBM. The tripple core gives it a good boost for handeling multiple objects on your screen at one time. The Memory is well handled to keep the system from bottle necking. and the GPU(Graphics Processor) is still considered one of the best on the market. The Xbox360 also Utalizes a DVD player for playing games and watching movies. It does upconvert DVD movies to a higher resolution which is a benafit for those with a big screen T.V. And finally You possibly have a hard drive depending on when you bought the system and what SKU you have. The Xbox360 has had some Hardware Issues Thought. This is also known as the Red ring of Death. Most of them have been cleaned up or fixed in it's 2 year exsistance but it has hurt the console in consumer confidence. It also has the now failed HD-DVD add on drive. Not that it was a bad product. But many have expressed the desire for it to have been integrated into the Console it's self instead of being an externial perifial.

Games: Currently the Xbox360 has the most games out. The Xbox brand is known mostly for it's FPS(First Person Shooter) games. Although they do have many other good games. Like Dead or alive, Saints row. and Project Gothem Raceing. But the biggest hit titles for the Xbox have been it's FPS.

Most notably The Halo Franchise. Halo is one of the Best Selling franchises of all time alongside those other famous characters like Sonic, Pacman, Mario, and other big game Icons.

The Xbox Brand is also very well know for it's online system. Xbox live is one of if not the most popular online community out there. There is a small fee, But if you are an online gamer it is worth the money.

Networking: The Xbox 360 does have a ethernet port on the system but if you have a wirless network you will have to pay a premium for the seperate wireless adapter. So I would have to recommend that if you can, you will want to hardwire the Xbox 360 to your network. but another good thing about the Xbox 360 is it's ability to become a media extender on your network. Meaning that you can listen and watch all the Music & movies on you windows based PC. This is actually one of the big selling points for the Xbox besides the games.

Conclusion: The Xbox 360 has some great things to it and some not so great things depending on how you look at it. The lack of a hard drive as standared is in my opinion an downgrade for the originale Xbox. The HD-DVD not being intigrated and not used for games is also a possible downgrade to the system and potentially hurts future game development. Although that is not a definate and still has yet to be seen if it will be a hinderance or not. Most of the Xbox 360's originalle issues was Microsoft trying to beat Both Sony and Nintendo to market. Some of the features feel rushed and un-polished. But this does not take away from this being a great console. So depending on what types of games you like to play and what game franchises you like to follow the Xbox 360 is a good choise in the end.

Game Consoles comparison. Nintendo Wii

2008-03-05T17:06:00.000-07:00

This is something that I have come to think allot about. What console is the best console. All of them have their strengths and weaknesses. We have the Nintendo Wii that is great for non gamers. Then the Xbox 360 that currently have the most next gen games and is much more powerful than the Wii. Then you have the Playstation 3 with the most powerful processor and the most recent domination on the Market with it's predecessor the Playstation 2. But I want to go into more detail on each console as I see them and who should buy them. I will Go over a new console everyday

First we will start out with the Nintendo Wii.

Hardware: This is the weakest of the current Generation of consoles. By weakest I mean the processor speed and graphics abilities. Some people have compared it to taking 2 Nintendo Gamecubes and strapping them together. Nintendo has admitted that they were not going for a more powerful console this time around. You have with it the Wii mote and the nun-chuck. You can sync 4 of them up to the system. You also have multiple accessories to connect with the Wii mote if you so desire. Nintendo has also moved up to a DVD player in this system although the console will not play DVD movies. The Wii also has a slot card reader for memory cards like in you Digital camera. All this gets you a small system that is innovative in it's controls but not what anyone would be able to call a powerful little system.

Games: Nintendo is know for it's quality control and family friendly games. Some Games of note are Zelda, Metroid, and Most any game with Mario in it. Nintendo has been called the family friendly console and also the kiddy console as many of it's more popular games are more simple and cartoonish. Not a bad thing but keeps out some of the crowd. Along with that is your Mii character that you create to play on some games. Nintendo has tried to spread it's wings a little bit with games like the Resident Evil series. But Nintendo this time around is very well know for it's mini games following the success of the Nintendo DS handheld system. The Wii does not have many games out at the moment though being that it is a New Console. But some fan favorites have come out or will be out soon for the console. Like Mario Galaxy, Zelda, And soon to come Smash Brothers and the Newest Mario Kart game. Great games for a first year console. The Wii is also Backwards Compatible with the Gamecube and has the connections for 4 gamecube controllers. So you can pull out Mario Kart DD or Super smash brothers and have a blast with the friends and family.

Internet: The Wii has a basic web browser. But it does now have a 1 time cost for you to have the ability to use it. You also have the Ability to download old Nintendo, Sega, and other older consoles games. This library of games is still currently growing. You can share your Mii with others and also participate in other online activities.

Other: Other basic things with the Wii is the Photo Manager. Allowing you to show pictures on your T.V. you can use a CD,DVD or memory card to view your photo's.

Conclusion:

Although I do think the Wii is a fun Console. I think it lacks in longevity. The Wii is the console version of Tickle Me Elmo. It is selling really big right now, But that is to a crowd that does not normally play Video games. Nintendo did a smart thing by Setting the Price they have because they are below the competition but they are still making money. But I think Nintendo has also done a great disservice to all those that have stayed with them and have enjoyed games in the Past. I think Nintendo should have gone for a more powerful CPU and GPU in the Wii. Not to keep up with Microsoft or Sony. But to make the Wii something that will be worth owning after two years on the market. The games are fun but I find that sometimes I want more. They are dumbed down versions of what we have already played in the past, but with a new face on it and graphics that are only a slight upgrade to what we were getting last Gen. I can Recommend the Wii, but not to everyone. If you are 15 or over you are better off with the other two consoles. if you like technology you are better off with the other two consoles. But if you like big Party games or have allot of kids, The Wii is for you.

Next Up is the Xbox360

Innovation

2008-03-05T10:40:00.005-07:00

It has been a few days since I last posted anything not that I don't have alot of half finished thoughts. I have a few things for Reviews on The Current Next Gen Consoles, and I have some thoughts on Movies. Particuarally the ones in the 80's that I love. and I am thinking on doing some remanesing of some old 80's movies in later posts. But Today what has been on my mind is Innovation, Creation, and expansion for things to come.
I have always liked the idea of inventing things. But Not something tried and true and adding a thing-a-who onto it and calling it new. And I don't want to create the Next Google, Yahoo, Aol, MSN, ask.com, Search page. or Myspace, or Facebook Personale web page. I don't want to be the one to create the Next high def format on t.v.'s or something that is short term. Too many people just Regurgitate an idea and add new art to it and call it better lately. I do not agree that facebook is better or worse than myspace. it's just got a diffrent face with the same insides. It's all that internet rave that say's if you build it they will come. But I believe that it is a limited market if you create just another Myspace website. Also people will only use so many Search engins. Those markets are saturated and the big hitters have already come out swinging.
So what is one to do? We don't have to come up with something new. We just have to come up with something usefull. Myspace is usefull because it lets you express yourself and keep in contact with your friends. Google as a search engine is usefull because it let you find what you are looking for. Creating the newest T.V. would be fun but takes alot of time and money. and I don't want to be the one that just one up's the other. I want to change the Market. I want to make the world better. I don't want to create a product that makes us more lazy. Yes they might be fun but it is pointless to have a beer can thrown to you so you don't have to go to the fridge.
But I have also found you don't have to listen to the negativity of those around you. Examples of this are my dad and he is very similar to how the world reacts to these things. I had the idea almost 15 years ago to put a Hard Drive into a car and put MP3's on it. So you could take all your music with you on one disk and not carry and swap out 500 CD's. We see this hitting big time now. Hard drives are truly now in Cars and Everyone knows the Ipod craze that has hit the market. And what did my dad along with the world say to me 15 years ago? Thats a bad idea. it will never work. Get a real job where you can make money get married and make babies. I regret now that I did not go after that idea. Sure someone might have already patented the idea before that. But Who knows. I could have been the one that got in and changed the world. People might not ever remember my name but my legacy would have been started. I want to change the world. I don't care if every one knows my name and people flock to me just to catch a glimpse. I just to feel I have done something with my life. I want to know I have created something that people will use to make this world a better one.
I know I am able to do some great things. I have many talents and skills because of how I have lived my life. I am a Great Draftsman. I have come to that conlusion and I am worth what My boss pay's me and more. I am good at specking out computers. I have built computers that can still outrun computers much younger and run smoother and cleaner. I can learn about things around me faster than most. I know my learning style. I know my health and how to stay healthy. Although I know I can do better and I need to not listen to others about what I can and can't do. I just need to apply myself and come up with that Idea that I know is out there somewhere.
What I see comming in big time over the Next Few years are Touchscreens. Possibly to come take over for the Mouse someday. Also UPC or ultra portable computers and Tablet PC. This goes along with the touch screens Because most of them have a touch screen of some sort. They will replace the Laptop computer someday. Video on demand or dowloadable content. I don't know if it will ever replace full ownership. But I do think that the Rental community will be taken by storm once americans update to faster internet connections. I also think you will start to see high def. Television sales start to rapidly pick up over the next few years. You will also see alot of previously 2D programs turn into 3D, especially art Programs. There is so much that can and will happen over even the next year in technology. That if you think about it first but don't do anything about it someone else will take advantage of it.
So find what you love to do and make it even better.

Master Cleanse Day 4. ok not really

2008-03-01T08:50:00.002-07:00

So I quit the clense yesterday around lunch. I don't think I want to do that again. To many emotional issues and stomach cramps that go along with it. I found I was really irritable. And me and angry don't go togeather well. I am liable to rip someones head off for saying Hi the wrong way if I go to long. But I feel so much better now. I had a salad. I figured I should not go to far into the realm off breaking the fast right into a tripple cheese burger and fries along with a side of heart burn. Then me and my girl. Both who dropped the fast at the same time on agreement that we were both more of a mess than we would ever like to be. We went to the gym last night did a little bit of cardio and went into the steam room. I was a nice way to end the day.

Egg and a Car do not work well

2008-02-29T11:47:00.003-07:00

Ok so as I was getting Ready to head off to work today I got all my things ready and walked out the door to find that some jerk(that is the kind name) had thrown an egg at my car. That is not the best thing for paint or so I hear. So I decided to go wash my car and try to get the partially dried on egg goup off. Well the first car wash only took quarters and anyone that knows me knows that I usually only use my debit card. So I did not have much change. But I did have enuph quarters to start the wash. So I turned it on and proceeded to spray off my car. and in my genious I found that spraying down on the car not only helped take off some of the egg but also soaked my pants. So now I had a car with egg on it and wet pants. What a wonderful morning. I can't tell you all the wonderful and glorious things that went through my mind if I ever found the kid that had the rest of the eggs in the carton.
So now it took me so long to wash my car at the car wash that my money ran out and there was still alot of soap on my car and me with no quarters or even a dollar bill. So I hoped in my car and drove to another car wash that I knew took Debit cards. So I tried calling my boss letting him know that I was running a bit late. Finally got ahold of him on his Cell phone. Good news is that he understood and told me to take my time. He was not in the office either haveing left for a meeting early that morning and was not back at the office yet. So I siged a little bit of relief and finished washing my car.

Master Detox Cleanse Day 3

2008-02-29T11:32:00.006-07:00

OK it is the morning and I was up and down half the might with stomach issues. I got plenty of sleep since I went to bed earlier than usual. But I am not liking day 3 although it has started out better than day 2. Of course I skipped the Salt water this morning and had the tea instead. I hate that salt water and after what it did to me yesterday I might not take it back.
On a side not along with my hunger pains I found as I was walking out to my car this morning that Someone had hit my car with an egg. That explanation will be in my next blog though.
So the Cleanse is not making me happy. I feel a little too sick and not liking the lemonade concoction anymore. The tea still does not bother me though. Not the best flavor but at least it's not making me gag when I drink it. But I am hoping by tomorrow that things will be better. that at least some of my cravings will be gone and that I will had a little happier attitude. I am planning a trip to the Gym tonight though. So hopefully a little sauna action will help clear my head.

Raise at work.

2008-02-28T15:23:00.002-07:00

Ok A should have wrote about this yesterday. But I finally got that much needed raise at work. Although it is a good raise I was hopeing for a little bit more. I know I am worth it. But it will help me be able to start saving alot more or at all. and I have hopefully learned a valuable lesson. Ask for the raise or you will never get it. I kept hopeing that I would get the raise for months and months and I was confident to tell others what I thought about the situatioon but not my boss. I don't know why. He's not the type to rip your head off. So Now I have my raise and I will be talking to my boss again soon to get another one.

Master Clense Day 2

2008-02-28T14:47:00.005-07:00

Ok So I have Started this master clense. I decided I should write so that I can remember in about a week or more on how Much of a sissy I am being right now.
Yesterday my first day was not bad although by the end of the day I was getting a little tired and just about everyone was offering me food. I have never desired so many diffrent types of food in my life. Pastas with a white sauce was on my mind all day long. I started off with the Salene water or as I call it "Salt water" That so far has been the most unpleasent part of this. I drank it yesterday and when they say it cleans out your systm they mean it. But Ugg it will just make you sick to your stomach. Then I started making the lemonade. That is not too bad. although I have really found the need to buy a juicer to get those lemons and limes to go into my drink and not all over my hands.
So day one ended in success. I was feeling good. Nothing wrong except for the desire for food although I was not hungry just the smells and pictures on tv were very tempting.

Day 2 has been a trial. I had the salt water this morning and after about 10 min it just came right back up. Yea!!! Now I really hate the taste of salt water!!! The lemonade has not tasted as good today either. Maybe it's because I am desireing a Root beer and a Bacon Cheese burger. Dang that Crown burger just around the corner. It tempts me so much. I Have a little bit of a head ache also. So I have decided that Day 2 sucks. Not much else except for the fact I feel sick. No specific stomach movements or hunger pains. I guess we will see what happens tomorrow.

Wish me luck. I am starting to think that this is not a clense. This is a ploy by all those that wanted to get rid of me and decided it would be best if I poisned myself.

Tech Geeks are better than I, Because they have a web site

2008-02-22T13:12:00.001-07:00

Ok the big thing I am alyas asked by friends, family , and coworkers is always about Technology. What is the Best T.V. to get or what is a good Video card to get for thier computer. It's the Curse of a Tech Geek. But at the end of the day I really don't mind. I love talking about technology. So For the poor Sap that is dumb enuph to ask me a question. They better be ready to listen. I can go on and on about allot of diffrent things. Computers. From what is the fastest to what is the best for the money.
Then there are T.V.'s This is my most recent favorite subject. From Contrast ratio and brightness levels to brand name and screen size. Not only is Screen size important for the male ego, But why have a 24" television in a room that is the size of a football stadium.
My other Favorite Subject is Video Cames. I am Primarily a Console Gamer. And to narrow that down I am a Playstation Gamer. Sure I have played the other consoles. From the Nintendo Wii which my parents have. To the Xbox360 which two of my roommates have owned. But I always love the playstation games the most. But I will allways ask someone comming to me for advice. What games are they interested in and how much time do you have or want to play video games.
But one question I always get asked is where I have learned all this crazy stuff. Well For those of you reading this you might notice a few things on the side of my blog. Engadget and Cnet. These are two sites I would reccommend for you to go to if you want to start learning about technology. Engadget looks into the future to see what we will be getting 6 months or even possibly 10 years from now, and Cnet does alot of Reviews of current things out and give alot of detail on why it is or is not better than something else. This goes back to my title. These geeks are better than I am because they have a web site that can go to the masses. So that is where I recommend you all go for now until I have the time to learn and set up my own web site. Along with http://www.recommendedspec.com/ for those feeling a little more adventurious.
Of course your always free to ask me a question too.

End of a War.

2008-02-19T10:03:00.001-07:00

This has been a short war. But Finally one side has been able to claim victory as the other has Surrendered. No blood was shed. The only shots taken were those of words, and the victor was the one that could not only get the most support from the big boys. But was the one that the people chose. Both sides have thier streangths and weaknesses. But in this episode of red vs. blue. Blue not only won the battle the won the war.

This comes off the news That I personally read this morning that Toshiba is now stoping thier production of HD-DVD players. For those who don't know why that is so important. That is because Toshiba was the company that Brought the HD-DVD product to the market. They have had some very good backers, but thier competition has been like that of the picture below. Blu-ray brought to much to the table. Sony haveing thier own Movie studios these days unlike when it was the VHS vs Beta Max days. And Also With the introduction of the PS3 having a blu-ray player built in they were able to saturate the market quickly. But really the biggest blow was when Warner Brothers. One of the largest movie companys out there pledged thier support for blu-ray. When previously they were the only Major movie studio still supporting both formats. Now I will admit I made my choise early. But that is because I am a Sony Playstation fan. So I would have bought the PS3 anyway and I only stood to benefit from having Blu-ray become the High Def media of choise. But I still stand by my choise for many reasons but the most notable one would be capasity of the Blu-ray disk. I am now going to be looking forward to seeing many movies previously only on HD-DVD now moving over to Blu-ray. Like Warner Brothers said and Toshiba with thier most recent announcement. We can Finnaly get rid of the confusion in the high def format wars and push the high def format to being a worthy predasesor to DVD.

Valentines Saved.

2008-02-15T12:42:00.000-07:00

Just to Start out. I want to give everyone an idea of what I think Valentines is for. Valentines is for showing love to those around you. Friends, family and your significant other. Valentines is NOT as the Media put's it a time to get enguaged and buy expensive jewlery and spend way too much money on a girl because you messed up the rest of the year anyway.
So my Reason for saying Valentines is saved is a personal one. Last year I was dating someone and had the most horrible Valentines ever. We ended up not even talking at dinner and by the end of the night I was a jerk and I had ruined Valentines. Why you say? Because I didn't buy an expensive ring and make it a night to remember forever.
Well a year has passed. I have a new and much better woman in every respect. I still didn't buy the expensive ring. But I had a great conversation over a wonderful meal. That is all I wanted this Valentines. Even though both our parents have expressed the desire for me to pop the question. But I had to make it threw this Valentines. I had to see if it was the ring or if it was me that mattered most. By the end of the night I felt more loved and appriciated for who I am rather than what I stand for in someones mind.
Valentines was saved for me this year.

Ever Evolving

2008-02-07T10:48:00.000-07:00

I have been playing around with diffrent things on my blog. Just incase people were wondering. But hopefully some of it will give people an insight into what I like to read and what I enjoy.
I think the RSS feed will be the best. I like technology and there are so many things being invented and updated on a daily basis. Maybe one day we will be able to fly to china in less than an hour and get to see the world from space while doing it. Or maybe our cell phones Will have a battery the size of a pinky nail but have 100x the power output and charge it's self. All this can possibly lead to a beautiful future. But we have to keep up to take advantage.

Dowrys

2008-02-06T13:24:00.000-07:00

Ok so my girlfriends father Just offered her and her sister $1000 for the first one that gets married. Upsetting the both of them. He also offered a nice bathroom scale back in December.

Q. Why offer money to your daughters to get married?

A. Because your desperate to get them out of the house and you don't think they are whole without a wedding ring.

Q. Why only $1000? is your daughter not worth more?

A. Hey my parents would offer alot more just to marry me off.

Q. Why a bathroom scale? I have know too many girls that freak when they get on the scale. "Oh my heck I am 3 lbs overweight!!!!!"

A. No understanding of the general reactions of people. Especuially a woman.

Why the bribes? Why the desperation? Why the setting up of a competition?

Tax Refunds

2008-02-06T13:13:00.000-07:00

I just finished all my Tax work today and realized how small of a refund I am getting. and it makes me sick. Because I know atleast 20% or more of it goes to illigal immigration and then another 20% to corrupt polliticians and yet again another 30% goes to a Greatly Flawed Scocial Security system. my my 3% that I got back will go to something I can use other than fattening some burricrats wallet. But in the end it will anyway because of sales tax.
What a wonderful system for those on the recieveing end. Don't forget that they are the ones that make the rest of the world hate us. Because when they make a big decision it's because someone else offered them more money than the other guy. Not because it's always in the best interest of the country or the world.

Review of Juno.

2008-02-05T11:53:00.000-07:00

This is one movie when I first heard about it made me very skeptical. I thought it was going to be a total woman power movie with the guy being shown as a skum bag and something to glorify glorify all those single teen mothers out there. Because honestly that is the direction I have seen Hollywood and the World have been moving to.
Juno took a difficult subject, didn't really glorify it, But didn't make it out to be a horrible thing where the girl is the victum. They told a great story and made you laugh threw the whole thing. The feel was that of a Napolian dynomite Except for the jokes were better and you didn't have to wait ten minutes inbetween the jokes.
This story was ultimatly about hope. How we hope for the best, from our kids, our family, our friends, and others around us. But also shows this is not a perfect world but how we can still enjoy the bad or difficult times.
I am glad I was able to put aside my initial fears on this movie. It is a show worth you considering and should leave a good memory for all those who go and see it.

Irritations at Understanding

2008-02-04T15:00:00.000-07:00

Ok I will admit I am not the most religious person out there but I still am religious and will defend my beliefs. But I have noticed some things more in the past week or two that have me at whits end. It is the innability of some religious people to understand why anyone would do something other than thier way.
First Off I am Morman. Although you will hear many arguments Saying LDS or other names depending on who you come across. I went on a morman Mission. Although I was 21 when I went not 19 like most. and I will tell you this much. Most 19 year olds out of utah are not ready. But back on track. Missions are something very pushed in the church. The 19 year old male is almost expected and in some familys threatened to go on a mission. Bribes are made, Guilt is given, arguments are had.
This brings me to one of my examples. I was reading in the Ensign the other day and came across an artical about two parents that had the "quote" problem child. Wrong friends, Bad grades, quit school. But These parents did not have a hope that thier son would one day changes his ways and come back to the church. It outright brock thier hearts that he did not prepare from birth to go on a mission. Thier entire goal in life was to have thier oldest son go on a mission. Oh how great was thier pain! How much greater was thier lack of understanding... It comes to mind where half the host of heaven has gone, So why should we expect any more.
Now I don't fault these parents for haveing hope for thier son. But I do wonder if thier prioraties are correct or more cultish. A Cult will tell you what you have to do in every single aspect of life. A church like the LDS church will give you guidelines. As Joseph Smith said and many great men have also. "Teach them correct principles and let them govern themselves."
The LDS church remindes blind following members this all the time. Do not force a decision on anyone. Let them make thier own choises in life. Teach them how it should be and then let them decide if they will follow. You might have less converts, But the ones you get will be stronger in thier beliefs and better people for it.
Next is my roommate. He is a great friend and has been for years, Bit it is sometimes his lack of ability to understand simple things or bend his beliefs to a more proper understanding of life and how it really works. The other day he asked me if I had been going to church. That to me is an ok question. But when he said I shouldn't be missing out on my religiou learning. I refrained from pointing out that sometimes the teaching has many things to be desired. Many false truths or irrelevant answers are givin by members on a Weekly if not Daily basis. But ultimatly did he really think I was not getting a religious education because I missed church one or twice in the past two months that were not related to sickness? And in the end how much does it matter. We are here to get understanding. God understands that we all learn by diffrent methods. Not all of us can read a book and understand life. Most of us have to live it in a diffrent manner. Make mistakes and learn from what we have done.
So in conclusion. If you can't understand why someone would do something. Don't make a comment saying they are Stupid. Just say you don't understand. Leave it at that. You don't know thier mind. You don't know thier life. And you might never know why. You can say you wouldn't do it personally and walk away.

believe and it will happen.

2008-01-24T11:44:00.000-07:00

I am not one to push any one to go to school or to do anything that they don't want to or don't believe is in thier best interest, But I do believe that if you want something you have to work for it.
To give an example. There are many people that want to be in better shape. So they buy a gym membership go to the gym 2 or 3 times a week and then when they don't see a big diffrence in one or two months they give up. This is where an education can come in handy. Not because it teaches you to lift weights, but because you realize that it takes a good solid 6 weeks to start to strengthen muscle.
Back to my thoughts though. This morning I got to thinking. (I do my best thinking in the shower.) But there are so many things we should and can do in our lives to get us what we want. Like sitting up straight in our seat. I am a big time sloucher myself. But sitting up straight makes our body work harder. Our abs tighten up, our back muscles flex,and our shoulders pull back. All of this makes out body wake up. Gets our blood flowing and then we finish what ever project we are working on much faster.
But I don't think that is the only benefit. Because our abs are flexed they get a little more of a work out. We can actually make this even better if we flex our stomach off and on threw out the day. a basic tighten and release for about 5 or 10 min every hour, not including breaks. Where I believe we will see these benefits is anytime we get up and walk,jog, or run.
But this is not just a health benefit. It is also a mood booster. your abs are tighter you stand taller. making you more attractive, you feel more confident and your energy is higher. it's the basic thought of better shape better attitude. Butt sagging too much? to a few cheek squeezes during the day and no one will no the better since your sitting anyway. think your shoulders slouch too much? sit up straight and pull them back a little. people will just think your into your work.
This will hopefully get to the point where you will look in the mirror like we all do. But instead of thinking I need to go to the gym more. you will just figure out a better way to stand or sit while doing your work. all while training your muscles to do what you want them to do.
Finally to finish this off. we have all heard a saying like "Fake it untill you make it" or "Believe and it will happen" These can be true. want to make more money. put a toe in the water and let your imagination fly you will make more money doing what you love than anyother way because you will work harder on it and that will make you better at it faster and you will gain alot of expierience along the way.

Struggles with life

2008-01-22T19:00:00.000-07:00

Lately I have been feeling like I just can't keep up with everything going on in my life. I have work, my family, my friends, and my girlfriend. I think the only two I have paid attention too is the first and the last on that list.
My youngest sister is haveing a little boy with in the month. But when people ask me her due date I have no clue. If I don't live with my friends I am having a hard time keeping in touch. Especially my best friend who now lives in florida basically on the other side of the country but some days seems on the other side of the world because of it.
But then the things I am keeping in touch with the most are my girlfriend and my work. I don't mind my girl but my work is too much for too little. I love my job though, and it gives me so much more variety than I have had in the past at other jobs in this field or others.
Maybe one day I will be able to catch up but right now it just feels like when I get one thing done I am handed another 10 things to do.