Wanting to change

Well there are so many things that I want right now. A Job that has decent pay would be nice. The ability to take a vacation and not feel guilty about leaving work for a week or two. (of course that would come after I get the job) I would also love to lose a little more weight. I seem to have gained back some of the stuff I lost recently.

But Of all these things the thing that I want to change the most is my attitude about my life. I have been letting myself get a little down. As you can see by my last post, I have been feeling a little unwanted for any type of work. I have to personally realize that this is only temporary. I have some great friends and family looking out for me. The give me work to do, they take me out to eat and they send ideas for work my way.

I need to get the motivation to get up every morning and do something besides turn on the TV. I am not normally a couch potato. But I have really picked it up over the past few months. I feel like I have nothing to do. when really I have plenty that I could be doing that would benefit me more than sitting in front of the TV watching some dumb mid morning show. I could be working out or I could be doing school work or I could be working on a hobby. There are so many other things I could do with my current situation.

So starting now I am going to limit my time on the Internet. I am going to post something on my Blog once a week just to keep my mind running if nothing else. I am going to get up early every morning and go work out. I am going to spend time drawing for at least a half hour every day on anything that comes to mind. I am going to do my schoolwork for that day before I turn on the TV. I am going to take the dog on a walk after I work out every morning and then take him on a walk before bed every night. I am going to make sure the pets are groomed every week. And I am going to make sure my wife helps me on everything because I know I will eventually fail if I do not have someone to support me.

These are my gaols. These are my way of saying to life you have not defeated me. This will be my way to take back what I have lost and what was taken from me. This is how I will prove to myself and others that I am willing and ready to work hard and smart. That I am a good person to have around. That I am trustworthy to myself and others and that I am the best person for any job that comes my way.

P90X once again.

So once again I am going to go after my body and beat it up doing P90X. I am going to take all the things I learned from last time and I hope this time around that the benefits will be even greater. The things that hindered me last time were

1. Wedding- I was so busy trying to help with the wedding and then all the family parties and holidays along with that I did not eat as well as I could have
2. Lack or equipment- Last time I did not have Yoga mats, or a heart rate monitor or even a scale. I would have to use someone else's. This time around I have all the equipment that I need.
3. Time- Last time I was doing P90x I was starting work every morning at 7 am so I would get up at 5am every morning. That would not have been so difficult except for the fact that I would have to take my now wife home every night and we would usually stay up pretty late wanting to spend as much time with each other before I had to take her home. Now we can see each other any time we want(which is great) and she is already home. Also now I am currently only employed part time so I can sleep a little bit longer although I do not plan to sleep in too late.
4. Protein drink- Last time I did't get a proper protein drink. and the one I got tasted horrible so I would not always drink it. Now I have a better tasting one that will help me to improve everything much faster.

So I will be taking some pictures soon so that I can compare everything. I will try to post many of my current stats on here to keep anyone out there informed that is interested. I will be starting this upcoming Monday.

My P90X Workout review and updates.

    Well I thought I should update my blog. and also tell about the new workout program I am on. This one I hope to keep updated for the full time that I am on this program. P90X. 

    So far I am in my 3rd week.  I have noticed alot of strength and stamina changes.  My finacee has said she has noticed that I am slimmer. So I am getting what I want (strength) and she is getting what she wants (A slimmer Jake).

    So far my workouts consits of alot of pushups and pullups on Mondays(chest and back). and then jumping around on Tuesdays (Plyometrics), Curls, curls, curls and tricept, tricept, tricept on Wednesdays (Arms and Tricepts). and then Massive losses of water followed by Death on Thursdays (Yoga). and then Friday I do alot of squats and 

pull ups. Or in my case falling down and getting back up alot. (Legs and back) Finally Saturdays I learn how to kick you A** if you try to bother me during my workout. (Kempo) and then Sundays are a rest and streach day. and then I start it all over again. But that is only the first 3 weeks. Which I am just finishing up. the 4th week Will be a low impact week. So I will do alot more cardio and keep on the Yoga. 

     Now when I started this I was just on the verge of not being able to make it. So if you have not been the the gym in months. or are overweight I do not reccommend this workout. Find something else or make sure your fully comitted before you invest in these DVDs. 

    They have a test online to see if your are ready for this program. Try it and see how you do. If you pass all of them or only fall slightly short on one maybe two of the workouts. You can handle these workouts. But do not expect to keep up with the people on the video for atleast a few weeks if not more.

   The Next picture is not for the weak of heart or those that are sensative to light or easily blinded. Also those that like to make jokes or any other inapropriate comments Plase do not. 

This is my start up picture. 

     Yes the workout might help the gut. But I do not think it will help the tan or lack there of.

     I will be taking a new picture in a few weeks. Hopefully I can say I look better then.

My Appologies

   I figure in my Last few posts I have said a few harsh words. I am not saying I take back what I have said. But more how I said it. I will still stand that I have my right to my opinions and beliefs. But I want those others to know I respect their opinions also. I think that this is a great country. We all have the right to state our opinions and thoughts. Sometimes that means that what we want does not happen. The popular vote is what we live by. this is suppose to be a country for the people by the people. Not a country for the few by the few. 

 

   I think this makes us stronger. I do not like to see either side get mocked or be mocked. I have seen both the liberal media and conservative media take too many cheap shots at each other. Claiming victory were there was no clear winner or no war in the first place.  

  

   I will openly admit that I am republican, or conservative. But I also admit that I am sometimes wrong or do not have all the facts. But I do hope that I can say that I strive to understand others thoughts that are around me.

   I would like to thank the few that do take the time to read my blog. I try to mix things up.