My Appologies

   I figure in my Last few posts I have said a few harsh words. I am not saying I take back what I have said. But more how I said it. I will still stand that I have my right to my opinions and beliefs. But I want those others to know I respect their opinions also. I think that this is a great country. We all have the right to state our opinions and thoughts. Sometimes that means that what we want does not happen. The popular vote is what we live by. this is suppose to be a country for the people by the people. Not a country for the few by the few. 

 

   I think this makes us stronger. I do not like to see either side get mocked or be mocked. I have seen both the liberal media and conservative media take too many cheap shots at each other. Claiming victory were there was no clear winner or no war in the first place.  

  

   I will openly admit that I am republican, or conservative. But I also admit that I am sometimes wrong or do not have all the facts. But I do hope that I can say that I strive to understand others thoughts that are around me.

   I would like to thank the few that do take the time to read my blog. I try to mix things up. 

Sean Penn... My Children will not be ashamed of me!!!

     I am sick and tired of the gay community and the accept everything I do mentality!

   I do not have to accept you. Same as I don't have to accept everyone as my friends. It does not mean I will attack you. It does not mean that I will rip into your lifestyle. But it does mean I will stand up for what I know is right, when you try to force the opposite upon me.

   

   Where I get upset with Sean Penn. Is in his Oscar Speach where he said those who voted against gay marriage. There children will be ashamed of them. Well if my children are ashamed of me for believeing that marriage is between a man and a woman. Well then My children are wrong and this society that is very quickly spinning out of control would be to blame. 

   We do not have the right to make a choice but not pay the consiquences. I can't drive my car off of a cliff and expect not do die or get hurt real bad. I can't decide to drink bad milk and not expect to get sick off of it. I cannot get caught speeding, Admit that I was speeding and then expect the Judge to let me go with out paying for it in some way shape or form, just because she feels sorry for me. 

   Marriage is between a man and a woman. Sean penn and alot of the hollywood liberals do not seem to know this. But marriage is not just that. Marriage is the start of a family. Start of your family. Sure married couples sometimes adopt. But that is an option or in some cases the only choice after the natural options have been tryed and failed. Gay and lesbien couples cannot produce a family. They can be part of one. I am sure they can be loving parents. But just because they hear the word marriage does not mean that they know what it is and it does not mean they are entitled to it.

   Recently there was a news article that a 9 year old girl dieing of cancer married her 7 year old boyfriend. Alot of people say this is cute, or sweet. The courage of a child with cancer. But these 2 children do not understand what love is. They only know that thier parents are married and that others get married when they find the one they love. Maybe one day Sean Penn will also say that my children will be ashamed of me because I would not let them also get married when they are inbetween the ages of 7 to 9. 

    I will really be a horrible father. I mean how dare I! I will not let children get married. I will never agree to gay marriage. I will not be the one responsable for this worlds currupt behavior. the self destruct mode that we are in. I will no more contribute to the poison of society.

    Now I do agree that the Gay community should have some civil rights and the church has given a statement that I agree with. Things like the ability to go see loved ones.  Recieve health and tax benifits. But the word marriage is a holy one. and should not be tained. 

    

   As I was looking up the LDS churches stance on gay marriages and civil unions. Most of it was filled with Anti-Mormon, greater than though, gay and lesbien bigots. But one I read was a guy claiming to have been in the church for 30 years.  Gone on a mission, went to BYU, ect. You know they type.  He possibly was a know it all ASS then, and he has continued it now, just outside of the church at this time.  It is his goal to indocterinate all us LDS morons in the error of our ways. I am sure just as he found it his duty on his mission and in his church and work. Before ailinating everyone because he "Found the Truth about the LDS church!!!" his Blog is riddled with anti-mormon conspiracy theories. All of wich only have a fraction of truth mixed in with lies and speculation. might I add,. Just like the Gay community protesting the church with thier false doctorines and fabrications.  

This is what I wrote to him. I decided it best not to post it on his blog because it would only send him in an even further in his downward spiral hate for mankind.   

You may have spent 30 years in the church. Gone on a mission. Done all the so called church things. But you never truly understood what the church is all about. Your comments on the church are unfounded and shows your pure blindness to it. You need to re-educate yourself. 

Marriage is not a right. The church is not against the civil unions of gays and lesbians. They should have many civil rights. If your really interested in it. You should go look up the churches official stance. Also It was not in Utah that the law was past. It was in California. The Gay community is just as prominent as the LDS community. So this means more people agree with the LDS meaning of marriage than The Gay community meaning. Also, Do we not have the same right to speak out against gay and you and the Gay community have to speak for it? Do you not respect others opinions? Do you hold yourself above others? Are you a better than me? or in this case. Are you a better than president Hinckley was? I think not. I am sorry in your self pity that you decided to leave the church. But it was always said that those that leave the church will be the ones to fight the hardest against it. You justify your deeds by saying the church is wrong and you are right. You will one day realize that you are wrong. Do you know what the church will do on that day that you come crying and crawling back to them. They will accept you with open arms.

In conclusion. Sean Penn. You need to get off your high horse. Your children and your childrens children will pay for the atrocities you peddle. You recieved your votes for an oscar because of your 

portrayal of a gay man. Not for your ability to act.

The Gay community, Leave me alone. Do not try to force your ways upon me 

or others. You will meet resistance and if continued hatred. neither of which

you are looking for.

Update:

to the comment.

I am not ashamed because the church sends millions of dollars in aid to the poor. I support a church that gives to those in need. I am in support for a law that was voted on before by the people in California that a judge illegally overturned. So they voted on it again and took back their rights. I am in support of people "being divorced" if it was illigal in the first place. I support those that fight for thier right. I do not mind if the gays fight for rights as they do have that right. But Marriage is not a right. The supporters of gay Marriage do not know what marriage is about they are a bunch of bleeding heart, give everyone what they want and don't deserve cry babies. 

If your child is gay, you should turn your back on them. But if you don't like it. It does not mean you have to support them in it. I do not support gay marriage, I have that right. Gays and liberals would take that away from me if they could so so that they can get what they want.

I will not and cannot tolerate gay marriage. It goes against everything natural. Gays are only allowed to adopt and start a family because we as a society allow girls to become mothers at 14. We as a society teach ourselves not to be a family.

The church in its statement about gay Marriage said they were not anti-gay but pro family. Gay people will try to use this pure term against them. But at the heart of it. A gay couple is not a family. They cannot naturally start a family. You do not truly get both sides of the family. I do not say that gay people are or would be bad parents. In many cases they are possibly better parents to an adopted child than the ones that gave them up. But that does not give them the right to marriage. Otherwise we might as well let all the pedofiles, animal lovers, children, ect. Get married also. Because once Gays get the right one or all of those will be next. Everyone has an agenda. Not just the gays or the blacks or the liberals, or any other group. I stand for my rights. The rights that this country gave me. I am ashamed of anyone that sheds their beliefs to make someone happy. I am ashamed of those that consider themselves religious but still support this cause. I am ashamed of they gay community for being so selfish. Spending all this time and money to make gay marriage legal. When there are starving children that they could help. I am ashamed of those that will try to take away my rights and try to tie my tounge so that they can pass a law that very little of the people in this country support and then they attack me when I do or say anything. I am ashamed of those that try to call me a bigot because I do not believe in thier cause. Shame, Shame, Shame on you all.

Not everyone is alike.

    I have been looking over the past few months and years to my life and I have noticed one thing that almost everyone seems to have in common. They think everyone should be like them. 

I will explain.

    I don't drink. I have sipped a few differen drinks out of curiosity and have decided that it is in no way for me. I hate the taste, I do not like the places you have to go to get the "Good Stuff" and I don't like the lifestyle. But I don't mind that someone else decides to drink, as long as they do it responsibly. But I have been told my many a drinker that I have just tried the "Wrong drink" and they always will recommend a different one. Which I will reply with "I am just not interested" But always they will just say I have tried the wrong drink, It was mixed wrong, you tried the wrong brand.  But in the end I know it's just, I do not like it. it is not for me. 

  

    But this is not just to the drinkers or "Worldly People". Religion does it also. one of those is that if you don't see something as a miracle. You see it as good people, Good luck, or anything else. Not that you deny there is a god. Just that you don't think he controls everyone like a puppet. We all struggle with prayer, to which someone always answers with something like "You don't pray right". I have been guilty of this myself being of the mind that most people are lazy and want things given to them. It is not right of me to say, but sadly I do. 

    

    Being LDS, I also hear allot about the temple. I do not hate the temple. I have liked to go. But there are some things that have made me UN-easy in the past. The typical response I have heard is. "You just have to go more often." Or "You did not go in with the right frame of mind." All these answers are the same answers a drinker will give me.  Just worded differently. If I do not like something. Is that not my choice anymore. If I feel out of place or have a distaste for something that is my choice. 

   Most people accept that I do not like tomatoes. Why can't they accept that I don't like some temple ordnance. Or that I just do not like to drink alcohol. Why can't the atheist accept that I believe in god. why cant democrats accept that I think government should have a much smaller roll. Why cant the rich and the poor accept that the other is not a snob or lazy trash.  My thought is, They want you to be like them.  They want you to just accept and love everything they do. Being different to people is considered bad.

America full of Dreams and Bull

Bush has had one of the most difficult Presidencys ever. Failure is harsh words for someone that has been threw so much and done so much for this country.

He was there at the first of his presidency with one of the most brutal attacks on this or any other country. An attack that was on Civilians and not the Military. He was there and he was strong and Vowed to keep us safe from attacks like that from years to come and Although he may have made some bad decisions during that time. We have been safe from many terrorist attacks. But he did not have some of our soldiers show no class and torture prisoners. He was the one that issued the formal apology for someone elses mistake.
We Give him grief on the failure of the people of New Orleans. The failure of the under maintained Levees that broke under the pressure of one of the most horrific Hurricans this country has seen. We give him grief because Aid was not there immediatly. But I did not see many of the people of new orleans helping themselves to anything other than free aid and free store electronics. They did not have to go in and clean up the dead bodys, they asked everyone else in the country to do it. They did not all go in and rebuild thier city. They asked the rest of us to do it. Bush did not fail then. We did. We just have passed the blame onto him. Shame on America not on Bush.
Bush may not have been the best President this country has ever seen but he is not the worst. He made decisions when no one else wanted to. He was there for this country and we turned our backs on him. Shame on us. Shame on us for being so petty. Shame on us for being so weak. Shame on us for being so greedy. No wonder the rest of the world hates US.
He knows he is not well liked. But now he is still trying to make a gracefull exit. I applaude him on being civil when no one else seems to be able to.

Hidden Demons

Last Night I was awoken with a startle from one of my dreams. The Dream Was largly based on me running around in this strange area. Honeslty I think it was inspired from the game I just purchased yesterday, "Little Big Planet". But I was not bothered by that. Although odd it was quite the enjoyable dream. But what Startled me was the short but sudden change that happened in the dream.

As I was saying I was wondering around. It was an area that I had just cleaned up myself and was very proud. Not even a speck of dust was to be seen anywhere and it was quite the large area. I was almost hovering around I was moving so fast. Alot of ups and downs. Stairs and solid wooden boxes. It was a very colorful dream.

After I had run away for a while. I noticed a very dusty area I had not seen before. I went in and it actually looked alot like a room in my parents basement except slightly larger and where there is a concrete wall was a large opening into what looked to me like avery nice home theater room. Well I started to walk over to the room and noticed some sort of demond in the room, smoking what looked like a cigar. although I was not sure. I only saw his arm and a slight profile of his face. He called my name with the frightening deep crackly voice. It starteled me so much that I woke up right then.

I woke up with such a fright that I am not sure if the voice was part of my dream or if it was something in my room. because I work up mid word but heard the whole word. It really freaked me out. But I like to consider myself fairly brave at times. So after a very quick scan of my room I went back to sleep. But still it gave me quite the scare and really made me think. What did he represent. What inner demonds do I have that I have either forgotten abot or apparently do not know about. What is in my dusty unused basement.

The Woman I intend(ed) to marry.

(This is something that I wrote a few months back. I can say in many ways I do still feel the same but I feel it is all for not. I cannot talk to me Belle anymore. I do not feel she wants to see me anymore. But I would take her back if I knew she was still mine. But I don't know if that will ever happen.)

8/9/08

I have the most beautiful woman around me. she has the softest skin and a shine in her face. spunk in her attitude mixed in with a little sass and pride. I love my Belle and I want to world to know that. She is my world and what my life was ment for. I love to pamper her and buy her gifts and flowers, candies and all the little things that let her know that I am hers. I don't want to know what life is without her ever again. She is my ray of sunshine and my compas threw life. She is my streangth, will, & power. She can always put a smile on my face or make me cry when she is upset. I love to have her near me and to smell her close. I love to hold her and squeeze her and never want to let go. I love her laugh and I love to tickle her even when she begs me to stop. I like to encourage her to prove her streangths. I want to be her sugar dady and she can be my sugar mamma. Not with money but with hugs and kisses. I love my Cassandra Bell Mcmanama

Pick Your Poison.

I though I would give some of my thoughts on the whole McCain/Obama Presidential race. First of all I do not think either man is a devil or a saint. They are both men with flaws. Something that the American public seems incapable of seeing on either side. One is always viewed as incompitent or evil just depending on what side you vote for.

The sides can and are very diffrent. This is part of the root to the problem in America these days. "If your not arguing with someone then how could either of you be right?" for some people there has to be constant conflict, constant argument, constant hatred of the opposing team. Although this has always been part of life I believe that the media has brought it more to light. Giving people more to get upset about and more to argue about.

Talking around the cooler use to be the extent of most light harted but heated debates. Now we make instant comments on someones news article, or even on someones blog. Fights break out on this for multipule reasons. either someone does actually disagree with you, or someone is just looking for a fight. One is just fine and part of how life should be. The other is a childish act by someone.

So what does the media and are own actions have to do with the canidates? Well first of all Dirty politics in the past of back-biteing and false or twisted acusations has now started to show it's self in our daily lives. The politicians do not have to do the dirty politics anymore. The news does it for them and we add fuel to the fire. News stations rarely just give us the facts anymore. They have to interpret it for us also. They have to tell us what we think. They give us our opinion. Why? Because we told them to do it.

Now back to the presidential election. How do we choose our next President? How do we choose the next leader of the free world? I mean a debate would normally be a good thing. But these days politicians only tell us what we want to hear. They can fix the economy! They will fix all the faults of what the previous president or previous party! The economy will improve our incomes will go up and our stress levels will go down. They will fight for the people. The Middle and lower class. The working man/woman. They will do better than the other canidate. They will save us from ourselves. I am thinking I have heard this all before. I am hearing this from McCaine but more importantly I am hearing it from Obama - The outed parties for the past 8 years presidential canidate. Can we go off what they tell us? No!!! They have just as much of an idea on whats going to happen tomorrow as anyone else in the world. They are public speakers and are just trying to sell us what we already have.

So how about thier past? I mean Bill Clinton always wanted to be president, Ronald Reagon wall a well respected Actor. Two diffrent people for two diffrent background. We found faults with both. We have always found the faults in our leaders. But it just proves that we cannot go by who the person shows himself as.

Basically I don't think either canidate is perfect for the job. I think both would do great things for this country and both would struggle greatly with other things. So Pick your poison.

Rooting for the underdog.

I have an issue and most people are starting to get on my nerves with this. But why does everyone have to root for the underdog? is it they desire change because thier life is crap? Is it just some stupid human desire to see someone who has not trained as hard or as long to win? is it that we want to be able to say that everyone we don't like is evil and the underdog is fighting for us? Then also who really is the underdog anyway? Do you cheer for Lex Luthor to defeat Superman? No we do not! Maybe that is self preservation though.
But why do we cheer on the guy that only got to where he is not because he was able to back stab everyone else that was better than him in the first place?
Examples of these things are mostly seen in sports. Like most recently the Superbowl. I wanted to see history happen by the Patriots making history by finishing off a tuff but otherwise undefeated season. But many people only wanted to see the Giant win soley for the fact to see the Patriots lose. Not that they were Giant fans all year, or that ultimatly the Giants were a better team. They just wanted the Giant to win just to see the Patriots loose. The Patriots who had worked hard all Season long to win every game. To do everything right on the field, and proved they were one of the best teams ever in football history.
Other examples of this I have seen have been in most every sporting event. Baseball, Basketball, Soccer, and even in the Olympics. But Sports is not the only place it is seen. Buisness is also a place where we cheer on the underdog. Not because the ultimatly bring us a much better product. But because we feel the Big corperation has done well for too long and needs to be de-throned.
I see this mostly in Game forums myself. Most notably recently is many game geeks that Bash Sony, then Microsoft, But all praise Nintendo. Now I will admit that Nintendo is not an evil company. But they are not a saint company by any means. You might read my review on Nintendo. Mainly the Nintendo Wii. Although it is a ok system. I still see why it should be the underdog. It is a bad console compared to the the PS3 and the Xbox 360. They gave you a reboxed gamecube with another crapy controller. But people defend the Wii as if it was thier own child. saying things like Nintendo did not want to compete with Microsoft or Sony, Or Nintendo does not care about graphics. This is all a lie in my opinion for Nintendo because they tanked with the Gamecube and the N64 was not much better. Nintendo did not want to compete with Sony or Microsoft because the cannot compete with them. Nintendo only success has been in the handheld market for the past 10 years. Thier Consoles have been lacking. and so have thier games with those consoles. That is why you see a new Mario Kart and Mario game each time. Those are the only games they can do right each time. But We in the end see them as the underdog and so we cheer them on. Praise them for thier short commings and buy and promote thier underdone & underworked console.
So why do we Root for the underdog? They don't really do anything for us. They don't give us pride in our country, or the ability to see history in the making. They don't give us anyting consistant. I will root for someone to finish a race but not to win it. But they only give us a moment that in the end is not always the best.

Printing Printing Printing.

For anyone that Does not know. I own a small Print Buisness on the side. I wish it was a little smaller though in the fact that I have a very large Large format printer. 54" to be exact. But For the Past two days I have come across a snag. I am able to print The color just fine and the rip send it to the printer in good time.

But for the Past two days I have been trying to print a double sided banner. I don't think that my printer likes the material or me right now it keeps bunching up and printing big black marks on the banner media. Why? because it does not like me and the banner media is too soft and is getting pushed in. Also there must be an issue with the banner media. it just wrinkles up even more in certin areas. some tape was in one area. and I am not sure of the others. But either way. I am not happy and I am done with printing it. I might just have to farm it out to someone else and take the hit because I am just burning money now.

I never want to print a double sided banner ever again. Of course I said that before and I should have ment it then.

Master Cleanse Day 4. ok not really

So I quit the clense yesterday around lunch. I don't think I want to do that again. To many emotional issues and stomach cramps that go along with it. I found I was really irritable. And me and angry don't go togeather well. I am liable to rip someones head off for saying Hi the wrong way if I go to long. But I feel so much better now. I had a salad. I figured I should not go to far into the realm off breaking the fast right into a tripple cheese burger and fries along with a side of heart burn. Then me and my girl. Both who dropped the fast at the same time on agreement that we were both more of a mess than we would ever like to be. We went to the gym last night did a little bit of cardio and went into the steam room. I was a nice way to end the day.

Egg and a Car do not work well

Ok so as I was getting Ready to head off to work today I got all my things ready and walked out the door to find that some jerk(that is the kind name) had thrown an egg at my car. That is not the best thing for paint or so I hear. So I decided to go wash my car and try to get the partially dried on egg goup off. Well the first car wash only took quarters and anyone that knows me knows that I usually only use my debit card. So I did not have much change. But I did have enuph quarters to start the wash. So I turned it on and proceeded to spray off my car. and in my genious I found that spraying down on the car not only helped take off some of the egg but also soaked my pants. So now I had a car with egg on it and wet pants. What a wonderful morning. I can't tell you all the wonderful and glorious things that went through my mind if I ever found the kid that had the rest of the eggs in the carton.
So now it took me so long to wash my car at the car wash that my money ran out and there was still alot of soap on my car and me with no quarters or even a dollar bill. So I hoped in my car and drove to another car wash that I knew took Debit cards. So I tried calling my boss letting him know that I was running a bit late. Finally got ahold of him on his Cell phone. Good news is that he understood and told me to take my time. He was not in the office either haveing left for a meeting early that morning and was not back at the office yet. So I siged a little bit of relief and finished washing my car.