Lose one job quit another.

Well I have not posted in a while So I will try to give a quick rundown of the past 2 or 3 months. December was a difficult month. With Christmas keeping everyone busy along with everything else we do it was hard to keep up. But about4 days before Christmas day I got notice that I was being let go and to be out by noon. They had no more work for me. My supervisor and other boss called me in after I got the news and apologized for everything. Letting me know he had fought to keep me. I do not blame him for anything. But that took all the wind out of my sales just before Christmas. I was expecting if nothing else maybe a bonus check for all the hard work I had done from September to December. But instead I got a severance check.

So now it has been a little over 2 months since I was laid off. I have found that getting an unemployment check is very difficult to get from the state. First off they don't take into account what I was really earning. So I have took about a $1000 per month pay cut. Then I took a part time job and so they stopped payment on my unemployment right away. That job I was not earning anything and not enjoying it at all. I could not even justify the gas I was spending to get to work. So I quit that job so that I could look for something better. Of course if you quit a job they will put your unemployment back on hold until they decide if they are still going to pay you or not. Paperwork paperwork paperwork. Make our government run slow and yet they still make mistakes. So now I am working part time for my wifes parents helping will collections and some billing. Mostly the folding of paperwork on the billing. But I will say a much more satisfying job compared to the other one.

Now I am still looking for full time work. I am taking online courses to try and get a bachelors degree in art, something I have been thinking of doing for a long time. Sad that it took me loosing my job before I fully took advantage of it. Then I sit at home most of the day trying to save money and take advantage of everything I can. Hopefully sometime soon I will be doing allot of doggy sitting so that I can help pay the bills. I figure if I take a few part time jobs along with the doggy sitting I might be able to bring in a pretty decent salary.

So I guess that would be the basics for everything. I am sure not many people read this so any secrets that I may have divulged should be safe.

America full of Dreams and Bull

Bush has had one of the most difficult Presidencys ever. Failure is harsh words for someone that has been threw so much and done so much for this country.

He was there at the first of his presidency with one of the most brutal attacks on this or any other country. An attack that was on Civilians and not the Military. He was there and he was strong and Vowed to keep us safe from attacks like that from years to come and Although he may have made some bad decisions during that time. We have been safe from many terrorist attacks. But he did not have some of our soldiers show no class and torture prisoners. He was the one that issued the formal apology for someone elses mistake.
We Give him grief on the failure of the people of New Orleans. The failure of the under maintained Levees that broke under the pressure of one of the most horrific Hurricans this country has seen. We give him grief because Aid was not there immediatly. But I did not see many of the people of new orleans helping themselves to anything other than free aid and free store electronics. They did not have to go in and clean up the dead bodys, they asked everyone else in the country to do it. They did not all go in and rebuild thier city. They asked the rest of us to do it. Bush did not fail then. We did. We just have passed the blame onto him. Shame on America not on Bush.
Bush may not have been the best President this country has ever seen but he is not the worst. He made decisions when no one else wanted to. He was there for this country and we turned our backs on him. Shame on us. Shame on us for being so petty. Shame on us for being so weak. Shame on us for being so greedy. No wonder the rest of the world hates US.
He knows he is not well liked. But now he is still trying to make a gracefull exit. I applaude him on being civil when no one else seems to be able to.

The Woman I intend(ed) to marry.

(This is something that I wrote a few months back. I can say in many ways I do still feel the same but I feel it is all for not. I cannot talk to me Belle anymore. I do not feel she wants to see me anymore. But I would take her back if I knew she was still mine. But I don't know if that will ever happen.)

8/9/08

I have the most beautiful woman around me. she has the softest skin and a shine in her face. spunk in her attitude mixed in with a little sass and pride. I love my Belle and I want to world to know that. She is my world and what my life was ment for. I love to pamper her and buy her gifts and flowers, candies and all the little things that let her know that I am hers. I don't want to know what life is without her ever again. She is my ray of sunshine and my compas threw life. She is my streangth, will, & power. She can always put a smile on my face or make me cry when she is upset. I love to have her near me and to smell her close. I love to hold her and squeeze her and never want to let go. I love her laugh and I love to tickle her even when she begs me to stop. I like to encourage her to prove her streangths. I want to be her sugar dady and she can be my sugar mamma. Not with money but with hugs and kisses. I love my Cassandra Bell Mcmanama

Oh how long has it been.

I have been asked alot recently how often I have been praying. By many diffrent people, not just one or two. I do not remember the last time that I got down on my kneese and prayed. I have never been one to say prayers in the first place. I do not like to ask for help. Maybe I am to stubborn, or maybe I am just too scared. Prayer just mean to me that I am going to be asking for help. Help for something that I should be able to do myself.