World is going down hill fast

Over the past few weeks I have thought about this. It has bugged me forever but the other night it came to a point where I just had to let it burst out. "This world is going to hell and I know how and why!"

First off the reason I got upset. I have posted on forums and blogs many time. I usually try to be more of a middle man and I try not to start a fight. But I do say it as I see it and I give reasons why. Well when one of those posts get's deleted or reported because someone got insulted by one thing I said I have every right to get upset. I will do my best from now on not to support these sites.

Now the reason for the issue. Everyone now feels that they have the right to cry about everything. They whimper about how you say something. Not what you mean by it. They take offense to everything. A black person, if they so desire will or are looking for it can make anything look racially motivated. A Hispanic man will say it's you fault he is poor and uninsured even though he is not the one looking for a good job or finishing his education. A feminist will say she was not given a job because she was a woman. Not because she was not as qualified as the person that actually got the job. I am sure there will be someone out there that will be insulted that I used hell in this blog, and to that I say. Dammit I can say what ever the hell I want!

This happens all over the world. You cannot say your thoughts anymore. You cannot give an educated answer unless you have 5 Ph D's on that subject. Otherwise people will take offense to it. They will say your a nut and a crazy angry man. Democrats are getting upset because republicans are demonizing the president. Well I just say it's all fair. The democrats have been doing that for years against Bush. All is fair in love and war as they say. if you give it you better be able to take it.

As for the current American arguments. Healthcare is not a human right, it is a privilege. A right is th freedom to live and breath. If you do not take care of yourself now. we should not be expected to take care of you later when it is already to late. America gives opportunities. They give you the opportunity to have better healthcare. they give you opportunity to have a better job, bigger house, more money. These are not rights. These are not things that should be given to you. You can cry all you want about it. If we want to pour our money to the needy. Give them more opportunities for education. more opportunities to get a good job. Those will give them opportunities to get better healthcare.

Human kind does not need to be pampered and taken care of. We learn by trials. We learn by the hard times that we have to go threw. We learn to take better care of ourselves. If you are not worried about what everyone else is saying you will stop taking everything said as a potential insult.

I cannot say that I have not been part of this and I cannot say that I will never be again. But from now on I am going to do everything I can to not be a part of this system anymore.

Age Of reason

I was just reading a article on AOL talking about how because of Ronald Regan and his small government idea. That is what has caused all the issues in this country.

My comment to that is that no liberal seems to know what he is talking about anymore. They are so far left that they will not allow themselves to think in any other direction. They attacked Bush 7 of the 8 years he was in office. They did suck a good job at it that they made the war in Iraq even harder. They were the ones that killed soldiers. They are the ones that killed our friends and children. Why because they showed the world what we have become. WEAK!!! We bicker and fight over every little thing. We debate over everything. Every ones feelings have to be taken into account. Even if they would rather kill you than look at you.

So now that they have Made both Bush Sr. and Jr. look like devils. They are now attacking Regan. One of the most popular and well loved presidents of all time. Why are they going after him? Because they are trying and very successfully tearing down the system. They want all the power to be put in the hands of the few to control the many. They want us to be slaves to ourselves. They want the rich to pay the poor to not do anything. They tout themselves as a modern day Robbin hood and the poor and troubled cheer them on, but yet they do not know why. The poor only hear that they either don't have to work or they have to work less. they hear things like free health care and cheaper fuel costs. They do not know what these are or what they mean.

As a country we are slowly falling into the propaganda that the far left wing liberals are pushing. They have taken over the media and they come into our homes. they are filling our minds with crap and evil. We need to fight it. We need to work to better form our own opinions and throw half of what the media says to the side.

We need to become the Land of the Free and home of the brave once more. This is not a one person fight. We all need to look at what is happening and see if we truly agree with it or not. This is not a popularity contest. This is life. We need to leave the Jr high and high school mentalities behind us. We need to hear what people are pushing for and not just cheer them for speaking well. We need to not attack ourselves to just one persons ideals. But hear everyone and become our own person. We all do these things and this country will have a chance. If not we will become the next Rome.

Age of Fear

I was a little heated up last night over an incident that happened Sunday night. We have some neighbor kids that like to doorbell ditch us frequently. Normally it is just a little game and I pay little to no attention to it. But Sunday night after a long drive. It was pretty late. Between 10 and 10:30pm.

I had gone to bed since I wake up every morning at 6am or earlier. Cassie was staying up a little longer than me. But was about to go to bed herself. When the doorbell starts ringing like crazy. When Cassie opened the door she had rocks thrown at her. Not pebbles. But rocks. So not only are we rudely awakened at a late hour. Cassie was attacked by a little girl. Somewhere between the age of 4 to 8.

So last night I was still upset about the incident. Why is this child up and out side causing trouble 10 at night? I was not allowed outside after 10. Heck at that age I was in bed. Maybe parents don't believe in bedtimes anymore? Its not the hip thing to tech your child good bed habits anymore?

So in my rage I said to Cassie. If that child rang our doorbell like crazy again in the middle of the night and then threw rocks at either of us again. I was going to go out there and spank her. Cassies prompt response was. "I would not do that, They could sue us."

Now Cassies response although right made me think. This is the age of fear. We are all afraid that someone would sue us. You have to keep your house clean and in good condition because if someone comes into your house to rob you and happens to trip and fall, hurting them self. They can sue you for the injury. Not only that. They have won cases in the past! So it does not matter that they were in the wrong. That they were committing a crime. It only matters that they got hurt on your property.

So now back to my situation. The mom of the child was outside. She did apologize to Cassie for the child ringing the doorbell. It was a case of "Was that my child?!?!? Oh I am sorry" so part denial and a simple possibly PC apology. Did she mean it? I don't know. But did she promptly take that child into her room and at least ground her for the night? Did the child even know what she did was wrong?

So where does the fear stop? Should I be afraid every day of protecting myself, my wife, or any one in my family? If you go by the news or public opinion. Yes. Don't do anything of the sort. Do not stand up for human rights unless your part of the human right organization. Even then they will step on your toes and hold you back from doing the right thing, just so that they can keep their funding.

So what can we do. We protect ourselves, we get sued. We do nothing, We get taken advantage of. This is an age of fear. An age of rewarding those that do wrong. I am sick of it. You can't go to a politician because they Will give you the politically correct answer. You can't go to a lawyer because of previous cases they will just tell you that you will lose. We are stuck in the mud. We have to let people take advantage of us because it is the only way to keep yourself from going into horrible debt.

Sean Penn... My Children will not be ashamed of me!!!

     I am sick and tired of the gay community and the accept everything I do mentality!

   I do not have to accept you. Same as I don't have to accept everyone as my friends. It does not mean I will attack you. It does not mean that I will rip into your lifestyle. But it does mean I will stand up for what I know is right, when you try to force the opposite upon me.

   

   Where I get upset with Sean Penn. Is in his Oscar Speach where he said those who voted against gay marriage. There children will be ashamed of them. Well if my children are ashamed of me for believeing that marriage is between a man and a woman. Well then My children are wrong and this society that is very quickly spinning out of control would be to blame. 

   We do not have the right to make a choice but not pay the consiquences. I can't drive my car off of a cliff and expect not do die or get hurt real bad. I can't decide to drink bad milk and not expect to get sick off of it. I cannot get caught speeding, Admit that I was speeding and then expect the Judge to let me go with out paying for it in some way shape or form, just because she feels sorry for me. 

   Marriage is between a man and a woman. Sean penn and alot of the hollywood liberals do not seem to know this. But marriage is not just that. Marriage is the start of a family. Start of your family. Sure married couples sometimes adopt. But that is an option or in some cases the only choice after the natural options have been tryed and failed. Gay and lesbien couples cannot produce a family. They can be part of one. I am sure they can be loving parents. But just because they hear the word marriage does not mean that they know what it is and it does not mean they are entitled to it.

   Recently there was a news article that a 9 year old girl dieing of cancer married her 7 year old boyfriend. Alot of people say this is cute, or sweet. The courage of a child with cancer. But these 2 children do not understand what love is. They only know that thier parents are married and that others get married when they find the one they love. Maybe one day Sean Penn will also say that my children will be ashamed of me because I would not let them also get married when they are inbetween the ages of 7 to 9. 

    I will really be a horrible father. I mean how dare I! I will not let children get married. I will never agree to gay marriage. I will not be the one responsable for this worlds currupt behavior. the self destruct mode that we are in. I will no more contribute to the poison of society.

    Now I do agree that the Gay community should have some civil rights and the church has given a statement that I agree with. Things like the ability to go see loved ones.  Recieve health and tax benifits. But the word marriage is a holy one. and should not be tained. 

    

   As I was looking up the LDS churches stance on gay marriages and civil unions. Most of it was filled with Anti-Mormon, greater than though, gay and lesbien bigots. But one I read was a guy claiming to have been in the church for 30 years.  Gone on a mission, went to BYU, ect. You know they type.  He possibly was a know it all ASS then, and he has continued it now, just outside of the church at this time.  It is his goal to indocterinate all us LDS morons in the error of our ways. I am sure just as he found it his duty on his mission and in his church and work. Before ailinating everyone because he "Found the Truth about the LDS church!!!" his Blog is riddled with anti-mormon conspiracy theories. All of wich only have a fraction of truth mixed in with lies and speculation. might I add,. Just like the Gay community protesting the church with thier false doctorines and fabrications.  

This is what I wrote to him. I decided it best not to post it on his blog because it would only send him in an even further in his downward spiral hate for mankind.   

You may have spent 30 years in the church. Gone on a mission. Done all the so called church things. But you never truly understood what the church is all about. Your comments on the church are unfounded and shows your pure blindness to it. You need to re-educate yourself. 

Marriage is not a right. The church is not against the civil unions of gays and lesbians. They should have many civil rights. If your really interested in it. You should go look up the churches official stance. Also It was not in Utah that the law was past. It was in California. The Gay community is just as prominent as the LDS community. So this means more people agree with the LDS meaning of marriage than The Gay community meaning. Also, Do we not have the same right to speak out against gay and you and the Gay community have to speak for it? Do you not respect others opinions? Do you hold yourself above others? Are you a better than me? or in this case. Are you a better than president Hinckley was? I think not. I am sorry in your self pity that you decided to leave the church. But it was always said that those that leave the church will be the ones to fight the hardest against it. You justify your deeds by saying the church is wrong and you are right. You will one day realize that you are wrong. Do you know what the church will do on that day that you come crying and crawling back to them. They will accept you with open arms.

In conclusion. Sean Penn. You need to get off your high horse. Your children and your childrens children will pay for the atrocities you peddle. You recieved your votes for an oscar because of your 

portrayal of a gay man. Not for your ability to act.

The Gay community, Leave me alone. Do not try to force your ways upon me 

or others. You will meet resistance and if continued hatred. neither of which

you are looking for.

Update:

to the comment.

I am not ashamed because the church sends millions of dollars in aid to the poor. I support a church that gives to those in need. I am in support for a law that was voted on before by the people in California that a judge illegally overturned. So they voted on it again and took back their rights. I am in support of people "being divorced" if it was illigal in the first place. I support those that fight for thier right. I do not mind if the gays fight for rights as they do have that right. But Marriage is not a right. The supporters of gay Marriage do not know what marriage is about they are a bunch of bleeding heart, give everyone what they want and don't deserve cry babies. 

If your child is gay, you should turn your back on them. But if you don't like it. It does not mean you have to support them in it. I do not support gay marriage, I have that right. Gays and liberals would take that away from me if they could so so that they can get what they want.

I will not and cannot tolerate gay marriage. It goes against everything natural. Gays are only allowed to adopt and start a family because we as a society allow girls to become mothers at 14. We as a society teach ourselves not to be a family.

The church in its statement about gay Marriage said they were not anti-gay but pro family. Gay people will try to use this pure term against them. But at the heart of it. A gay couple is not a family. They cannot naturally start a family. You do not truly get both sides of the family. I do not say that gay people are or would be bad parents. In many cases they are possibly better parents to an adopted child than the ones that gave them up. But that does not give them the right to marriage. Otherwise we might as well let all the pedofiles, animal lovers, children, ect. Get married also. Because once Gays get the right one or all of those will be next. Everyone has an agenda. Not just the gays or the blacks or the liberals, or any other group. I stand for my rights. The rights that this country gave me. I am ashamed of anyone that sheds their beliefs to make someone happy. I am ashamed of those that consider themselves religious but still support this cause. I am ashamed of they gay community for being so selfish. Spending all this time and money to make gay marriage legal. When there are starving children that they could help. I am ashamed of those that will try to take away my rights and try to tie my tounge so that they can pass a law that very little of the people in this country support and then they attack me when I do or say anything. I am ashamed of those that try to call me a bigot because I do not believe in thier cause. Shame, Shame, Shame on you all.

America full of Dreams and Bull

Bush has had one of the most difficult Presidencys ever. Failure is harsh words for someone that has been threw so much and done so much for this country.

He was there at the first of his presidency with one of the most brutal attacks on this or any other country. An attack that was on Civilians and not the Military. He was there and he was strong and Vowed to keep us safe from attacks like that from years to come and Although he may have made some bad decisions during that time. We have been safe from many terrorist attacks. But he did not have some of our soldiers show no class and torture prisoners. He was the one that issued the formal apology for someone elses mistake.
We Give him grief on the failure of the people of New Orleans. The failure of the under maintained Levees that broke under the pressure of one of the most horrific Hurricans this country has seen. We give him grief because Aid was not there immediatly. But I did not see many of the people of new orleans helping themselves to anything other than free aid and free store electronics. They did not have to go in and clean up the dead bodys, they asked everyone else in the country to do it. They did not all go in and rebuild thier city. They asked the rest of us to do it. Bush did not fail then. We did. We just have passed the blame onto him. Shame on America not on Bush.
Bush may not have been the best President this country has ever seen but he is not the worst. He made decisions when no one else wanted to. He was there for this country and we turned our backs on him. Shame on us. Shame on us for being so petty. Shame on us for being so weak. Shame on us for being so greedy. No wonder the rest of the world hates US.
He knows he is not well liked. But now he is still trying to make a gracefull exit. I applaude him on being civil when no one else seems to be able to.

The Woman I intend(ed) to marry.

(This is something that I wrote a few months back. I can say in many ways I do still feel the same but I feel it is all for not. I cannot talk to me Belle anymore. I do not feel she wants to see me anymore. But I would take her back if I knew she was still mine. But I don't know if that will ever happen.)

8/9/08

I have the most beautiful woman around me. she has the softest skin and a shine in her face. spunk in her attitude mixed in with a little sass and pride. I love my Belle and I want to world to know that. She is my world and what my life was ment for. I love to pamper her and buy her gifts and flowers, candies and all the little things that let her know that I am hers. I don't want to know what life is without her ever again. She is my ray of sunshine and my compas threw life. She is my streangth, will, & power. She can always put a smile on my face or make me cry when she is upset. I love to have her near me and to smell her close. I love to hold her and squeeze her and never want to let go. I love her laugh and I love to tickle her even when she begs me to stop. I like to encourage her to prove her streangths. I want to be her sugar dady and she can be my sugar mamma. Not with money but with hugs and kisses. I love my Cassandra Bell Mcmanama

Sitting by the kitchen dreaming of food.

So I have been at my new office for a few weeks now. I have really been slacking on updating my blog and I am sorry to those 2 readers. So here is an update hopefully a very long and interesting one.

My new office is very nice I like all my bosses depending on the day and the job I can have up to 5 but usually it is just one or two. As you can see my desk is right by the break room. So I am getting up and drinking alot more water these days. A good thing but also the bathroom is a little further away and I am taking more of those breaks also. Ha it's funny how life evens out.
Also as you can see my life as a draftsman is full of clutter. paper paper everywhere comming at random times and coming in bulk. Maybe I have no choice but to be cluttered like this or maybe I just learned it from family. Either way I feel like a complete slob 5 days of the week.
But one of the best things of all is the fact that I am able to have money in the bank. I am not spending it on gas or snacks. or half as much soda "Water Breaks!!!" they are great.
I am still doing some projects in Revit. Possibly I will be taking some revit classes sometime soon and also I will be looking into taking some classes for a program called Microstation. I have not heard wonderful things about the program. But many govermenet entities require it. You know... To make things more difficult and less cost efficent. I love how my tax dollars are spent.
So then other news on the office front was the loss of the Junior Engineer at my office. I guess things were not working for either side and he was let go after around 2 months. So that added alot of pressure onto everyone in the company. Well atleast the draftsman that would be needing to pick up the slack and get to know his project that includes me. I think I am safe for atleast another two weeks. Actually out of what I heard I am safe for alot longer than that unless I really screw up. But you never know. I am hourly so that means first to be let go if things go badly.
On a good note. They have unofficially that this is the year that they take the entire company to Disneyland for a weekend. I don't have much more innfomation except for the fact that it will be sometime in early December. Also I am allowed and encouraged to bring one person along with me. As of two weeks ago I don't know who that is anymore. But that is another story I am still trying to cope with myself and would completly negate how I started this paragraph.
So I guess that just about covers it. I am doing well. I am making money and if I do well I will make more. and I have no other life to speak of still. Getting up and trying to get to work by 7am everyday is still a pain but I think I am getting better.

Too many Questions

Ok you may be wondering why I am showing this Picture and Why I am not in it. Well that would be because I was not there. I was not informed about it and I was apperently not invited.



Yes this is a Picture of a now married friend of mine. (top left corner) That I have known since 4th grade when he moved into my neighborhood and into my school. We were great friends all the way threw highschool and saw alot of each other up until he left for his mission. I left a little later than he did. so we did not see each other or hear much from each other for about 3 years.



But maybe that is where life laughs at all of us, is the good connections that we lose over time. The things that made me sad. How busy we get and the friends we lose because of it. Well Over the past few years I have not seen or heard much from My friend lance. I got home and talked to him while I was bed ridden for about 3 weeks after some sergury. He said he was over at his parents and would be right over. I did not see or hear from him after that phone conversation for over a year. He never came over. When I asked him later he told me he forgot. So I guess I must have been his favorite friend ever to be forgotten 5 min. after our conversation. I was depressed at that time and really I feel it has affected me for years and to this day on how I react to things. Lance showing up that day would had made me feel better. Not that lance was the only one I didn't see during that time.



But Now I have to ask the Question. Are Lance and I still friends? I hear that he is enguaged from a mutual friend that heard from his sister threw myspace or facebook. So neither of us heard directly, or thats what I understand. I very rarely hear from lance. Last time I talked to him he called me on accident. So maybe I should just drop him because we really have not been friends for a few years now. Maybe he thinks he is better than me because he has been studying to be a lawyer. Maybe we were never that great of friends in the first place. Maybe I was just a stepping stone and someone for him to use to make himself feel better. Or maybe I did something to piss him off enough that he would not even think of inviting me to his wedding, and because of that he will not be invited to mine. Because why have someone around that does not want to be there or see you in the first place.