Paying for and Planning a wedding? I have no good advice.

    Ok so recently I got enguaged to a wonderful woman. We are now getting married in june. 

   Now comes the hard part. I always heard of all the fun things about weddings. Especially the wedding night! Wink Wink. But I have not ever seen in any of the wedding movies the part where you feel like your pockets are empty and your sanity dropping like a rock. I know what is going threw my head. So I feel Sorry for my fiancee Cassie, Because she has the hard end of the deal. Traditionally the Man just has to show up to where the soon to be bride tells him to. She Gets all the inital stress I guess you would say.

   

But now where my pockets begin to feel empty. I did not realize that everyone else in this country that gets married was so rich. I mean honestly after a ring and a honneymoon. I figure I will have to mortgage my house that I have not bought yet.  People throw the word thousands out there, like it is nothing. "Oh how much is this?" says I. To which they reply "Oh only a few thousand." I usually turn pale and have to catch myself before I faint. I hope that is how most guys feel, so that I can say that I am not that big of a dork. Also I hope that I hide it well. I know cassie is trying to keep things resonable. 

The Woman I intend(ed) to marry.

(This is something that I wrote a few months back. I can say in many ways I do still feel the same but I feel it is all for not. I cannot talk to me Belle anymore. I do not feel she wants to see me anymore. But I would take her back if I knew she was still mine. But I don't know if that will ever happen.)

8/9/08

I have the most beautiful woman around me. she has the softest skin and a shine in her face. spunk in her attitude mixed in with a little sass and pride. I love my Belle and I want to world to know that. She is my world and what my life was ment for. I love to pamper her and buy her gifts and flowers, candies and all the little things that let her know that I am hers. I don't want to know what life is without her ever again. She is my ray of sunshine and my compas threw life. She is my streangth, will, & power. She can always put a smile on my face or make me cry when she is upset. I love to have her near me and to smell her close. I love to hold her and squeeze her and never want to let go. I love her laugh and I love to tickle her even when she begs me to stop. I like to encourage her to prove her streangths. I want to be her sugar dady and she can be my sugar mamma. Not with money but with hugs and kisses. I love my Cassandra Bell Mcmanama

Printing Printing Printing.

For anyone that Does not know. I own a small Print Buisness on the side. I wish it was a little smaller though in the fact that I have a very large Large format printer. 54" to be exact. But For the Past two days I have come across a snag. I am able to print The color just fine and the rip send it to the printer in good time.

But for the Past two days I have been trying to print a double sided banner. I don't think that my printer likes the material or me right now it keeps bunching up and printing big black marks on the banner media. Why? because it does not like me and the banner media is too soft and is getting pushed in. Also there must be an issue with the banner media. it just wrinkles up even more in certin areas. some tape was in one area. and I am not sure of the others. But either way. I am not happy and I am done with printing it. I might just have to farm it out to someone else and take the hit because I am just burning money now.

I never want to print a double sided banner ever again. Of course I said that before and I should have ment it then.

Master Cleanse Day 4. ok not really

So I quit the clense yesterday around lunch. I don't think I want to do that again. To many emotional issues and stomach cramps that go along with it. I found I was really irritable. And me and angry don't go togeather well. I am liable to rip someones head off for saying Hi the wrong way if I go to long. But I feel so much better now. I had a salad. I figured I should not go to far into the realm off breaking the fast right into a tripple cheese burger and fries along with a side of heart burn. Then me and my girl. Both who dropped the fast at the same time on agreement that we were both more of a mess than we would ever like to be. We went to the gym last night did a little bit of cardio and went into the steam room. I was a nice way to end the day.