Married life

So Tuesday was the 11th. meaning that Cassie and I have been married for two months. Also Monday was the 10th meaning Cassie and I had our first date 2 years ago. The week started off busy. Things to do not much rest to be had. But Monday night Cassie and I recreated our first date. We went miniture golfing at Mulligans and had dinner at Gekko's just across the street. Tuesday we enjoyed eachothers company because as a married couple we are poor and one big date wipes out our party cash for the week or possibly the month.

But It has been great. There are many things I would like to improve on, but Married life is great.

MaRrIeD LiFe iS sTrAngE!

It is so odd to think that I have been married now for a week and a half. Coming up on 2 weeks. No more late night Drives to and from home to drop cassie off. No more holding back on the makeouts.(No more details here) andMore time with my sweety. More sleep for sure. Just the quality time that I always wanted.

But Still everyonce in a while I just think. How in the world did I get this beautiful Woman to marry me. We are both crazy I guess.

Wedding Day Jitters

    Ok me and my Hunny bunny, Cassie Belle.  Have been working on our wedding for a few months now. Some things I like some things I am indiffrent. Some things I have too strong of an opinion on. But I think that Cassie would agree with me when I say. I want this whole process to be over.  It is the most stressful thing ever. I swear Cassie is going to crack any day now. 

    I am ready to move into our new place. Although I will be there for about two weeks before cassie actually moves in. I am excited to start a new chapter in my life. 

    So my wedding day jitters are not about wanting to get out. But to get the wedding day planned and over.

    

Sean Penn... My Children will not be ashamed of me!!!

     I am sick and tired of the gay community and the accept everything I do mentality!

   I do not have to accept you. Same as I don't have to accept everyone as my friends. It does not mean I will attack you. It does not mean that I will rip into your lifestyle. But it does mean I will stand up for what I know is right, when you try to force the opposite upon me.

   

   Where I get upset with Sean Penn. Is in his Oscar Speach where he said those who voted against gay marriage. There children will be ashamed of them. Well if my children are ashamed of me for believeing that marriage is between a man and a woman. Well then My children are wrong and this society that is very quickly spinning out of control would be to blame. 

   We do not have the right to make a choice but not pay the consiquences. I can't drive my car off of a cliff and expect not do die or get hurt real bad. I can't decide to drink bad milk and not expect to get sick off of it. I cannot get caught speeding, Admit that I was speeding and then expect the Judge to let me go with out paying for it in some way shape or form, just because she feels sorry for me. 

   Marriage is between a man and a woman. Sean penn and alot of the hollywood liberals do not seem to know this. But marriage is not just that. Marriage is the start of a family. Start of your family. Sure married couples sometimes adopt. But that is an option or in some cases the only choice after the natural options have been tryed and failed. Gay and lesbien couples cannot produce a family. They can be part of one. I am sure they can be loving parents. But just because they hear the word marriage does not mean that they know what it is and it does not mean they are entitled to it.

   Recently there was a news article that a 9 year old girl dieing of cancer married her 7 year old boyfriend. Alot of people say this is cute, or sweet. The courage of a child with cancer. But these 2 children do not understand what love is. They only know that thier parents are married and that others get married when they find the one they love. Maybe one day Sean Penn will also say that my children will be ashamed of me because I would not let them also get married when they are inbetween the ages of 7 to 9. 

    I will really be a horrible father. I mean how dare I! I will not let children get married. I will never agree to gay marriage. I will not be the one responsable for this worlds currupt behavior. the self destruct mode that we are in. I will no more contribute to the poison of society.

    Now I do agree that the Gay community should have some civil rights and the church has given a statement that I agree with. Things like the ability to go see loved ones.  Recieve health and tax benifits. But the word marriage is a holy one. and should not be tained. 

    

   As I was looking up the LDS churches stance on gay marriages and civil unions. Most of it was filled with Anti-Mormon, greater than though, gay and lesbien bigots. But one I read was a guy claiming to have been in the church for 30 years.  Gone on a mission, went to BYU, ect. You know they type.  He possibly was a know it all ASS then, and he has continued it now, just outside of the church at this time.  It is his goal to indocterinate all us LDS morons in the error of our ways. I am sure just as he found it his duty on his mission and in his church and work. Before ailinating everyone because he "Found the Truth about the LDS church!!!" his Blog is riddled with anti-mormon conspiracy theories. All of wich only have a fraction of truth mixed in with lies and speculation. might I add,. Just like the Gay community protesting the church with thier false doctorines and fabrications.  

This is what I wrote to him. I decided it best not to post it on his blog because it would only send him in an even further in his downward spiral hate for mankind.   

You may have spent 30 years in the church. Gone on a mission. Done all the so called church things. But you never truly understood what the church is all about. Your comments on the church are unfounded and shows your pure blindness to it. You need to re-educate yourself. 

Marriage is not a right. The church is not against the civil unions of gays and lesbians. They should have many civil rights. If your really interested in it. You should go look up the churches official stance. Also It was not in Utah that the law was past. It was in California. The Gay community is just as prominent as the LDS community. So this means more people agree with the LDS meaning of marriage than The Gay community meaning. Also, Do we not have the same right to speak out against gay and you and the Gay community have to speak for it? Do you not respect others opinions? Do you hold yourself above others? Are you a better than me? or in this case. Are you a better than president Hinckley was? I think not. I am sorry in your self pity that you decided to leave the church. But it was always said that those that leave the church will be the ones to fight the hardest against it. You justify your deeds by saying the church is wrong and you are right. You will one day realize that you are wrong. Do you know what the church will do on that day that you come crying and crawling back to them. They will accept you with open arms.

In conclusion. Sean Penn. You need to get off your high horse. Your children and your childrens children will pay for the atrocities you peddle. You recieved your votes for an oscar because of your 

portrayal of a gay man. Not for your ability to act.

The Gay community, Leave me alone. Do not try to force your ways upon me 

or others. You will meet resistance and if continued hatred. neither of which

you are looking for.

Update:

to the comment.

I am not ashamed because the church sends millions of dollars in aid to the poor. I support a church that gives to those in need. I am in support for a law that was voted on before by the people in California that a judge illegally overturned. So they voted on it again and took back their rights. I am in support of people "being divorced" if it was illigal in the first place. I support those that fight for thier right. I do not mind if the gays fight for rights as they do have that right. But Marriage is not a right. The supporters of gay Marriage do not know what marriage is about they are a bunch of bleeding heart, give everyone what they want and don't deserve cry babies. 

If your child is gay, you should turn your back on them. But if you don't like it. It does not mean you have to support them in it. I do not support gay marriage, I have that right. Gays and liberals would take that away from me if they could so so that they can get what they want.

I will not and cannot tolerate gay marriage. It goes against everything natural. Gays are only allowed to adopt and start a family because we as a society allow girls to become mothers at 14. We as a society teach ourselves not to be a family.

The church in its statement about gay Marriage said they were not anti-gay but pro family. Gay people will try to use this pure term against them. But at the heart of it. A gay couple is not a family. They cannot naturally start a family. You do not truly get both sides of the family. I do not say that gay people are or would be bad parents. In many cases they are possibly better parents to an adopted child than the ones that gave them up. But that does not give them the right to marriage. Otherwise we might as well let all the pedofiles, animal lovers, children, ect. Get married also. Because once Gays get the right one or all of those will be next. Everyone has an agenda. Not just the gays or the blacks or the liberals, or any other group. I stand for my rights. The rights that this country gave me. I am ashamed of anyone that sheds their beliefs to make someone happy. I am ashamed of those that consider themselves religious but still support this cause. I am ashamed of they gay community for being so selfish. Spending all this time and money to make gay marriage legal. When there are starving children that they could help. I am ashamed of those that will try to take away my rights and try to tie my tounge so that they can pass a law that very little of the people in this country support and then they attack me when I do or say anything. I am ashamed of those that try to call me a bigot because I do not believe in thier cause. Shame, Shame, Shame on you all.

Paying for and Planning a wedding? I have no good advice.

    Ok so recently I got enguaged to a wonderful woman. We are now getting married in june. 

   Now comes the hard part. I always heard of all the fun things about weddings. Especially the wedding night! Wink Wink. But I have not ever seen in any of the wedding movies the part where you feel like your pockets are empty and your sanity dropping like a rock. I know what is going threw my head. So I feel Sorry for my fiancee Cassie, Because she has the hard end of the deal. Traditionally the Man just has to show up to where the soon to be bride tells him to. She Gets all the inital stress I guess you would say.

   

But now where my pockets begin to feel empty. I did not realize that everyone else in this country that gets married was so rich. I mean honestly after a ring and a honneymoon. I figure I will have to mortgage my house that I have not bought yet.  People throw the word thousands out there, like it is nothing. "Oh how much is this?" says I. To which they reply "Oh only a few thousand." I usually turn pale and have to catch myself before I faint. I hope that is how most guys feel, so that I can say that I am not that big of a dork. Also I hope that I hide it well. I know cassie is trying to keep things resonable. 

The Woman I intend(ed) to marry.

(This is something that I wrote a few months back. I can say in many ways I do still feel the same but I feel it is all for not. I cannot talk to me Belle anymore. I do not feel she wants to see me anymore. But I would take her back if I knew she was still mine. But I don't know if that will ever happen.)

8/9/08

I have the most beautiful woman around me. she has the softest skin and a shine in her face. spunk in her attitude mixed in with a little sass and pride. I love my Belle and I want to world to know that. She is my world and what my life was ment for. I love to pamper her and buy her gifts and flowers, candies and all the little things that let her know that I am hers. I don't want to know what life is without her ever again. She is my ray of sunshine and my compas threw life. She is my streangth, will, & power. She can always put a smile on my face or make me cry when she is upset. I love to have her near me and to smell her close. I love to hold her and squeeze her and never want to let go. I love her laugh and I love to tickle her even when she begs me to stop. I like to encourage her to prove her streangths. I want to be her sugar dady and she can be my sugar mamma. Not with money but with hugs and kisses. I love my Cassandra Bell Mcmanama

Too many Questions

Ok you may be wondering why I am showing this Picture and Why I am not in it. Well that would be because I was not there. I was not informed about it and I was apperently not invited.



Yes this is a Picture of a now married friend of mine. (top left corner) That I have known since 4th grade when he moved into my neighborhood and into my school. We were great friends all the way threw highschool and saw alot of each other up until he left for his mission. I left a little later than he did. so we did not see each other or hear much from each other for about 3 years.



But maybe that is where life laughs at all of us, is the good connections that we lose over time. The things that made me sad. How busy we get and the friends we lose because of it. Well Over the past few years I have not seen or heard much from My friend lance. I got home and talked to him while I was bed ridden for about 3 weeks after some sergury. He said he was over at his parents and would be right over. I did not see or hear from him after that phone conversation for over a year. He never came over. When I asked him later he told me he forgot. So I guess I must have been his favorite friend ever to be forgotten 5 min. after our conversation. I was depressed at that time and really I feel it has affected me for years and to this day on how I react to things. Lance showing up that day would had made me feel better. Not that lance was the only one I didn't see during that time.



But Now I have to ask the Question. Are Lance and I still friends? I hear that he is enguaged from a mutual friend that heard from his sister threw myspace or facebook. So neither of us heard directly, or thats what I understand. I very rarely hear from lance. Last time I talked to him he called me on accident. So maybe I should just drop him because we really have not been friends for a few years now. Maybe he thinks he is better than me because he has been studying to be a lawyer. Maybe we were never that great of friends in the first place. Maybe I was just a stepping stone and someone for him to use to make himself feel better. Or maybe I did something to piss him off enough that he would not even think of inviting me to his wedding, and because of that he will not be invited to mine. Because why have someone around that does not want to be there or see you in the first place.

Dowrys

Ok so my girlfriends father Just offered her and her sister $1000 for the first one that gets married. Upsetting the both of them. He also offered a nice bathroom scale back in December.

Q. Why offer money to your daughters to get married?

A. Because your desperate to get them out of the house and you don't think they are whole without a wedding ring.

Q. Why only $1000? is your daughter not worth more?

A. Hey my parents would offer alot more just to marry me off.

Q. Why a bathroom scale? I have know too many girls that freak when they get on the scale. "Oh my heck I am 3 lbs overweight!!!!!"

A. No understanding of the general reactions of people. Especuially a woman.

Why the bribes? Why the desperation? Why the setting up of a competition?