Not everyone is alike.

    I have been looking over the past few months and years to my life and I have noticed one thing that almost everyone seems to have in common. They think everyone should be like them. 

I will explain.

    I don't drink. I have sipped a few differen drinks out of curiosity and have decided that it is in no way for me. I hate the taste, I do not like the places you have to go to get the "Good Stuff" and I don't like the lifestyle. But I don't mind that someone else decides to drink, as long as they do it responsibly. But I have been told my many a drinker that I have just tried the "Wrong drink" and they always will recommend a different one. Which I will reply with "I am just not interested" But always they will just say I have tried the wrong drink, It was mixed wrong, you tried the wrong brand.  But in the end I know it's just, I do not like it. it is not for me. 

  

    But this is not just to the drinkers or "Worldly People". Religion does it also. one of those is that if you don't see something as a miracle. You see it as good people, Good luck, or anything else. Not that you deny there is a god. Just that you don't think he controls everyone like a puppet. We all struggle with prayer, to which someone always answers with something like "You don't pray right". I have been guilty of this myself being of the mind that most people are lazy and want things given to them. It is not right of me to say, but sadly I do. 

    

    Being LDS, I also hear allot about the temple. I do not hate the temple. I have liked to go. But there are some things that have made me UN-easy in the past. The typical response I have heard is. "You just have to go more often." Or "You did not go in with the right frame of mind." All these answers are the same answers a drinker will give me.  Just worded differently. If I do not like something. Is that not my choice anymore. If I feel out of place or have a distaste for something that is my choice. 

   Most people accept that I do not like tomatoes. Why can't they accept that I don't like some temple ordnance. Or that I just do not like to drink alcohol. Why can't the atheist accept that I believe in god. why cant democrats accept that I think government should have a much smaller roll. Why cant the rich and the poor accept that the other is not a snob or lazy trash.  My thought is, They want you to be like them.  They want you to just accept and love everything they do. Being different to people is considered bad.

Be Still My beating Heart

Ok Looking on the Web today I saw something that made my heart go pitter patter. And of all things a game. But not just any game a game that includes action. and adventure unlike many I have ever seen in the past. A game that brings me back to the days when Indiana jones was at his peek. and Laura croft tomb raider was all the reage. It took concepts from the two and combined them togeather and then added alot of it's own personality to make one of the greatest games of 2007.

This is one of those games that can bring everyone togeather. Those that don't like to play will still love to watch this fun and very interesting story. My Girl Cassie Belle although not a big fan of video games loved to watch and has even played some. It is one of very few games that I have played threw multipule times. The scenery is Beautiful. Running threw the game is litke looking at a painting. I almost wished at times I could have had a camera in the game to take pictures of some of the sunsets. Then at the end of the game I felt like I was saying good bye to old friends.

Pictured above are the two of the friends in the game Nathan who is the main charater and Sully who is his partner in crime. The personalitys of these two is unlike any other game I have seen. they banter back and forth and you get the feeling these two digital characters really have known eachother for a long time.

So if you have not played Uncharted Drakes Fortune. I would highly recommend it. You will laugh, Cry, Jump with both fear and joy. You will be able to walk away with the feeling of watching an indiana jones movie for the first time. You will feel like you did when you walked out of George Lucas or Stephen Speelburgs older movies. You know before they got old and lost the desire to push the limits and the need to prove themselves. This is one of the great games to have been made.

And now to move onto the Reason for this post. The reason my heart jumped. The reason I am so excited. The sequal to one of the greatest games made. Uncharted 2: Among Thieves

America full of Dreams and Bull

Bush has had one of the most difficult Presidencys ever. Failure is harsh words for someone that has been threw so much and done so much for this country.

He was there at the first of his presidency with one of the most brutal attacks on this or any other country. An attack that was on Civilians and not the Military. He was there and he was strong and Vowed to keep us safe from attacks like that from years to come and Although he may have made some bad decisions during that time. We have been safe from many terrorist attacks. But he did not have some of our soldiers show no class and torture prisoners. He was the one that issued the formal apology for someone elses mistake.
We Give him grief on the failure of the people of New Orleans. The failure of the under maintained Levees that broke under the pressure of one of the most horrific Hurricans this country has seen. We give him grief because Aid was not there immediatly. But I did not see many of the people of new orleans helping themselves to anything other than free aid and free store electronics. They did not have to go in and clean up the dead bodys, they asked everyone else in the country to do it. They did not all go in and rebuild thier city. They asked the rest of us to do it. Bush did not fail then. We did. We just have passed the blame onto him. Shame on America not on Bush.
Bush may not have been the best President this country has ever seen but he is not the worst. He made decisions when no one else wanted to. He was there for this country and we turned our backs on him. Shame on us. Shame on us for being so petty. Shame on us for being so weak. Shame on us for being so greedy. No wonder the rest of the world hates US.
He knows he is not well liked. But now he is still trying to make a gracefull exit. I applaude him on being civil when no one else seems to be able to.

Prop 8 and how it is right.

Proposition 8 Passed recently in California amongst a few other states. Talking with a friend today I have found a few reasons that prove that in todays sociect it is right and that the opposition has not need to take cheap shots at the LDS religion who was a large supporter of it.



First off. Gay marriage was forced upon many People in this country by a supreme court judge that with his own reasons. Bypassing millions of voters in California thoughts and opinions for the few. This country is built upon Democracy. The many rule over the few. The vioce of the people run this country and not the few. So if the people of this country or any particular state do not want to support something. Weather it is gay marriage or anything else. We as a people have that right.

Second is the fact that Marriage is something that was orriginally supported by Religions. weather it was jewish, catholic, Muslim, or many other. So Marriage is a religious Cerimony. So Religion has every right to state and hold firm to saying that Gay marriage is against the will of god. It is thier stance.

Third is that Religions and people have the same right to an opinion against Gay marriage that the Gays and Lesbiens and thier supporters have for it. An opinion is just that. Its not law until the people make it a law. And in this case opinion is that people are against gay marriage.

This country is under fire, Religions may call it the Devil. I call it the Devious and Evil. Wether it's gays, Enviromentalists or just religious fanatics and any other group. Those that have a little knowledge saying they know everything. Admitting weakness in nothing. And not willing to look at anybody elses opinion as valid. They are only for themselves. They are showing what this country is becomming. We are spoiled brats. We get what we want how we want and when we do not get it. we throw a temper tantrum. We cry and stomp our feet. We tell everyone that it is not fair. Pass blam and tell lies. We put others below us. we are of no use to the world.

As a country we need to stand up for these things. We need to have a voice of reason. We need to stop listening to screw ups like Madonna and Joy Bayhar. Yes, they have a right to thier opinion like anyone else. But they stand for a country that does not want any responsability. They want anything and everything at all times. They want to do what they want when they want. Celebrities are not always the best people to ask for an opinion. We need a country with morals. A country that will not cry at the drop of a pin. A country that not only watches out for others but ourselves.

Hidden Demons

Last Night I was awoken with a startle from one of my dreams. The Dream Was largly based on me running around in this strange area. Honeslty I think it was inspired from the game I just purchased yesterday, "Little Big Planet". But I was not bothered by that. Although odd it was quite the enjoyable dream. But what Startled me was the short but sudden change that happened in the dream.

As I was saying I was wondering around. It was an area that I had just cleaned up myself and was very proud. Not even a speck of dust was to be seen anywhere and it was quite the large area. I was almost hovering around I was moving so fast. Alot of ups and downs. Stairs and solid wooden boxes. It was a very colorful dream.

After I had run away for a while. I noticed a very dusty area I had not seen before. I went in and it actually looked alot like a room in my parents basement except slightly larger and where there is a concrete wall was a large opening into what looked to me like avery nice home theater room. Well I started to walk over to the room and noticed some sort of demond in the room, smoking what looked like a cigar. although I was not sure. I only saw his arm and a slight profile of his face. He called my name with the frightening deep crackly voice. It starteled me so much that I woke up right then.

I woke up with such a fright that I am not sure if the voice was part of my dream or if it was something in my room. because I work up mid word but heard the whole word. It really freaked me out. But I like to consider myself fairly brave at times. So after a very quick scan of my room I went back to sleep. But still it gave me quite the scare and really made me think. What did he represent. What inner demonds do I have that I have either forgotten abot or apparently do not know about. What is in my dusty unused basement.

The Woman I intend(ed) to marry.

(This is something that I wrote a few months back. I can say in many ways I do still feel the same but I feel it is all for not. I cannot talk to me Belle anymore. I do not feel she wants to see me anymore. But I would take her back if I knew she was still mine. But I don't know if that will ever happen.)

8/9/08

I have the most beautiful woman around me. she has the softest skin and a shine in her face. spunk in her attitude mixed in with a little sass and pride. I love my Belle and I want to world to know that. She is my world and what my life was ment for. I love to pamper her and buy her gifts and flowers, candies and all the little things that let her know that I am hers. I don't want to know what life is without her ever again. She is my ray of sunshine and my compas threw life. She is my streangth, will, & power. She can always put a smile on my face or make me cry when she is upset. I love to have her near me and to smell her close. I love to hold her and squeeze her and never want to let go. I love her laugh and I love to tickle her even when she begs me to stop. I like to encourage her to prove her streangths. I want to be her sugar dady and she can be my sugar mamma. Not with money but with hugs and kisses. I love my Cassandra Bell Mcmanama

Pick Your Poison.

I though I would give some of my thoughts on the whole McCain/Obama Presidential race. First of all I do not think either man is a devil or a saint. They are both men with flaws. Something that the American public seems incapable of seeing on either side. One is always viewed as incompitent or evil just depending on what side you vote for.

The sides can and are very diffrent. This is part of the root to the problem in America these days. "If your not arguing with someone then how could either of you be right?" for some people there has to be constant conflict, constant argument, constant hatred of the opposing team. Although this has always been part of life I believe that the media has brought it more to light. Giving people more to get upset about and more to argue about.

Talking around the cooler use to be the extent of most light harted but heated debates. Now we make instant comments on someones news article, or even on someones blog. Fights break out on this for multipule reasons. either someone does actually disagree with you, or someone is just looking for a fight. One is just fine and part of how life should be. The other is a childish act by someone.

So what does the media and are own actions have to do with the canidates? Well first of all Dirty politics in the past of back-biteing and false or twisted acusations has now started to show it's self in our daily lives. The politicians do not have to do the dirty politics anymore. The news does it for them and we add fuel to the fire. News stations rarely just give us the facts anymore. They have to interpret it for us also. They have to tell us what we think. They give us our opinion. Why? Because we told them to do it.

Now back to the presidential election. How do we choose our next President? How do we choose the next leader of the free world? I mean a debate would normally be a good thing. But these days politicians only tell us what we want to hear. They can fix the economy! They will fix all the faults of what the previous president or previous party! The economy will improve our incomes will go up and our stress levels will go down. They will fight for the people. The Middle and lower class. The working man/woman. They will do better than the other canidate. They will save us from ourselves. I am thinking I have heard this all before. I am hearing this from McCaine but more importantly I am hearing it from Obama - The outed parties for the past 8 years presidential canidate. Can we go off what they tell us? No!!! They have just as much of an idea on whats going to happen tomorrow as anyone else in the world. They are public speakers and are just trying to sell us what we already have.

So how about thier past? I mean Bill Clinton always wanted to be president, Ronald Reagon wall a well respected Actor. Two diffrent people for two diffrent background. We found faults with both. We have always found the faults in our leaders. But it just proves that we cannot go by who the person shows himself as.

Basically I don't think either canidate is perfect for the job. I think both would do great things for this country and both would struggle greatly with other things. So Pick your poison.