How much am I worth to you?

How much is my life worth to you. 

That use to be a very generic question with no real answer. But in today's medical society it has become a very real question. 

With so many things that can hurt our health, thus our lives. It comes the question. How much would you be willing to pay to keep someone alive?

Now this question also becomes subjective to your access to money.

Also with that, the cost of medical protection has skyrocketed over the years. 

So the process of dying in the U.S.A. has become very very expensive.  You could have had a small inheritance for the kids. If you do not have good health insurance.  That inheritance is gone. 

So how much are your loved ones willing to pay to keep you around. 

It's a very difficult question to actually answer as you have many many unknowns.  Like how much is it going to cost and how much can you get approved for. In some cases the appropriate action might not even be offered because of your financial situation.  

So the system has already put a price on many people's heads. The system is cruel. 

The system has turned more into making some people very very rich. Over giving everyone quality Healthcare. 

But also I don't think many answers like socializing Healthcare will make it any better. 

Doctors need a system where they can truly care about each person's outcome. One where that person does not just become a number. Either a financial number or person served that day,month or year. 

Our system use to feel more like that. But the mega corporations and the general thing of Healthcare insurance which is by its very nature is run by the numbers. Which numbers by their very nature are unforgiving and can be very cruel.  

But you go into cost. The constant and often high inflation that happens with our money. Meaning you can do less with what you have. 

Meaning the state of our economy has also ruined what should be the most cherished times in our lives. 

The Gold in Golden years is for those treating you and not the person being treated. 

So now not only is it the Nature of the Health insurance and mega corporations.  But also you get to the federal level and the many many failures of the FED to actually control the money in the system. 

Every time the economy crashes there is a wealth transfer.  Every time the economy has a downturn. The poor get poorer. 

That is the fault of the FED. 

So that is the 3 bigger problems.  Mega Corporations,  Health Insurance and the FED. But what do they all have in common?..... Well the answer is. They are far removed from the problem.

They are the benefactors of a struggling economy. They are the benefactors of high inflation. They have traded and put high interest rates on your present to secure their future. 

But also I don't want to blame or attack the rich. Because many people do work hard for what they get. 

But what I say is. We also need to use the hard cruel number system to fix its self. Because the system is not in its current state, in a long term sustainable situation.  It is currently set up to fail on its own weight sometime in the future.  But when that happens no one will be financially available to help it. 

The Past is always there

I had a realization yesterday of how much my divorce still bugs me. Not that I want to go back to that relationship. But about the betrayal and story that went with how that relationship ended. We both were not perfect in the relationship. Although it was her that left and was the one that asked for the divorce. 

I was angry for a long time. The feeling of betrayal consumed me. Many of the false stories passed along hurt. 

Over the years I have mostly moved on. But yesterday a coworker who didn't know I was divorced asked me how long ago it was. I was almost shocked to say that was just over a decade ago. 

Mostly I don't think of the relationship other than to say "I don't want that" with things. I learned alot about what I want and don't want in a relationship. I learned alot about what I want in a woman. 

But I was surprised yesterday that I still hold some kind of sad emotion for that relationship. Some anger for that relationship. 

It's something I still need to work on and move on from. Some more closure I need to work on. Not the "I don't care" mentality.  But getting to the point where it does not bring up negative emotions.  

I usually don't talk about it. Or I can just joke a little about it. More light hearted stuff. I can even often generically analyze it, to say I like or don't like that kind of thing.

But sadly I still have some personal triggers from it. Triggers I need to fix or get help fixing.